I just can't do this anymore... I've tried so hard... I've told myself all my life that I CAN and WILL get through it...

But I'm just so drained... I can't sleep, I can barely eat, I don't want to see people... My best friend is dying... I'm failing at everything and I just want to give up. What's the point anymore when people just keep abusing me? Keep reminding me how useless I am and how I'll never amount to anything, that I'm just an anorexic, ugly, fat, sl*tty emo.

I wish I could just die. Just drop dead. I don't eve have the energy to kill myself anymore. I was so close to it earlier. I had to get out of the room before I did it. I knew Abi wanted to see me anyway. I have to go. i have to leave this Earth. I'm just wasting the air, the food, the space.

Somebody else deserves a life more than I do. I should never have been born, just like they've all told me. I hate this. Really I do. I'm struggling so much. I hate to admit it, but how will I get anywhere if I don't?

I don't belong here anymore.