((((((ThePainNeverDies)))))

Please--Stop-Breath-Look around you-Put your feet on the floor-Realize where you-Take a breath in slowly-Let it out slowly.

I understand what you are feeling--you are not alone. Slow down--let yourself know someone is here. I know the sleeping thing and the lack of eating. Not wanting to see people, But hun--those are all important things. I have to tell myself. Start with trying to rest during the day if you can just a few minutes at a time--even if it means coming here and asking someone to sit here while you do it so you are not alone--(I would be more than willing to sit here with you for however long it took you to get some rest). Start out with just a few bites of something easy nothing heavy-just something to keep you going. Again I would be willing to sit here so you are not alone with you while you do that.

I do not think you really want to give up--you came here asking for help and you have people here that care. You are not alone. Do you have a t or doc? You do not deserve people to keep abusing you. Can you talk to someone IRL? Can you talk more about that here? You are not useless, and I do not believe you will never amount to nothing. I know that God did not make no junk--He made us each individually and uniquiekly--you are no different.

If you really want to die you need to call someone for help right now. You are too important to lose. Can I tell you I used to feel like that too but it passes and I am still here to tell you--you can and will get through this. You do belong here or you would not have came. You are not wasting air or space. You do belong. I was told over and over the same thing and I believed it and I would be lying to you if I told you that at times it still doesn't cross my mind--but I tell you that to validate you and tell you I understand.

Please know you are important and we care. You were brave to write and reach out. That tells me you do want to live somewhere inside. And I am glad. Please keep reaching and keep posting. Know we care and are listening. Keep admitting how you feel. And know You DO BELONG.

dps