I have tried therapy., meds made me aggressive and fatter, therefore making my ED worse and I have just started work on the ED. I'm giving that a try and seeing if it works. I'm hoping that it works, but I'm apprehensive about whether it'll work or not, but I'm keeping faith that it will... I have tried to reach out to friends, I do admit I find that hard, but I'm getting there...

I'm just really sick at the moment, as in like physically, not mentally... I mean... Of course I'm mentally ill and stuff, but it's causing my physical health to go downhill rapidly and it's just.. Ugh. It's really draining and it stops me doing so much! My room's a mess and Conno'rs coming over tomorrow. I just don't want to do it. I feel like I can't be bothered, like it's not worth it because I won't be here anyway.

I ache all over and I just cannot be arsed to get out of bed for breakfast club, yet I do because people need feeding and they're not gonna get fed if I don't turn up and then I'll get yelled at or questioned about why I didn't turn up and then I'll have to spill the beans.

Gee. My whole body hurts soooo much and I hate it. What IS the point in trying so hard when it just seems to get me nowhere?