I've had 3 and a half hours sleep over 3 days, so yes, i need rest. But I can't rest. What IS that? I'm constantly restless and I don't know how to just rest. How can I "just be"?

Chronic depression? Sounds scary...

Okay.. What have I done today... Eaten... Decided that tomorrow I will put more videos on youtube (I'm a singer/songwriter/guitarist) and promised myself that anyone that has any requests of songs they want me to do, I'll do them. I'm just tired and exhausted and can't really think straight. I spoke to Vicki today... She's okay and she's worried about me... I'm worried about me... (wtf? I never say that!) But I think I'll be okay just as long as I play my guitar and possibly change my strings specially for tomorrow...

I'm in so much pain because of the tiredness and such. I don't want the pain anymore. I never wanted it and I still don't want it and I still can't deal with it.

Thanks for the replies, they're appreciated so much. I'm just trying to chill out listening to Jewel's voice. I just. Ugh. I don't know. I'm tired. I'm sorry if I'm not around tomorrow. I've either slept in or just not got a chance to get online for some reason or another...

I'm gonna try and sleep.. Goodnight..