hi ffgal, welcome to PC! I'm glad you posted. I'm sorry you're still feeling depressed after your time in the hospital, but it's great that you've found this place. I would not be able to cope with my depression nearly as well I do now if I had not found all the wonderful people at PC. Keep posting, and I'm sure you'll find that there are a lot of people here who are in the same boat, or who can offer you the support and advice you need while you get through this.

Welcome again.