Thank you everyone, I live in southeast Nebraska. I have realized today how automatic my supression has become. I was rading over your posts, when my wife came home from work. Before she arrvied I felt very jittery about this whole situation, especially after admitting to myself that there is a problem. But as soon as she walked in the door, I snaped right into my everything is fine act. It was istantanous. I've been hiding this for so long that I dont know if I will be belived, I guess that I should trust her, but as you all know its hard. Does anyone have a suggestion or stories about how they told there significant other. I dont really know whrer to start. I have spent so many years driving these feeling down deeper and deeper until I dont know if I can release them.