((((((((((adamsgirl)))))))))))

There's nothing crazy about wanting to check out for a while. I'd give anything to get away to a safe environment that could keep my life at bay for a while. Maybe you could find other ways to escape temporarily? I like listening to music, for example, or going for a walk, or writing a long letter to a friend (which I may or may not send). It's a bit of temporary relief, I've found.
Sorry things are so rough for you right now. I hope they start looking up soon.