Hello,

No, sadly I have looked everywhere for assistance. I checked with social services to see if they could think of anything to get around the insurance issue or to find someplace for me to find something, contact both my insurance companies, even tried to cancel the one insurance mental health didn't accept so they would take the Medi-cal. Nothing has been found that will work. I tried even looking in another country, but if I go to another country, I have to live there and switch over my insurance to there which means I would lose the medical doctor I have now. Even the ER's can't do anything more than have the moble psych team come to the ER to give me a evaluation. Then they leave and I go home, still nothing. I have also checked myself into the voluntary unit down south, but they couldn't help. They were basically set up to get you stable and release. They could help with the depression, but that was it. They just printed some stuff off the net for the PTSD and told me that's all they could do. They told me I needed a long term psychotherapist. Tell me something I didn't know. I was released with a list of therapists for my area, all ones I called that refered me back to mental health. Was a waste of time, and for my trouble there I got a bill from them for $1,000.00, apparently that was what my insurance didn't cover. Just lumped it in the pile along with everyone else I can't afford to pay and wants to sue me. I am just stuck with no way out of the situation, and things just keep getting worse and worse.

My friend died 2 months ago so all the bills went from being paid in 3rds to having to split everything. Then the bank does a cascade on my account leaving me 250.00 overdrawen. I didn't know that when I put the $160.00 double payment for last month (I didn't have the money that month to cover it so they let me do a double payment the following month) and this month in the bank and they took it. Thank god the furnature company is letting me wait till next month to give them the double payment. Then SSI sent me a letter saying the state of california is cutting social security checks by $30.00 a month. And now because we couldn't afford to pay the electric bill last month, I got a shut off notice. It's just a wall of things coming at me. If my mental health issues were not enough, now I have all of this to handle. I have been beyond depressed lately. And I will admit, suicide has crossed my mind a few times. It's just alot to handle all at once. Now is the time I could really use a therapist. Got to love life huh?

-Stanley