I know how you feel. I just talked to my therapist about this last week. I was thinking about my last hospitalization and how it was nice to be away. She talked to me about instead of checking into a hospital, why not go to a hotel for a couple of days?
She said I really wasn't in danger of hurting myself, I just needed a break.
Could you possibly take a couple days off to do this?
I know how tough it is, beleive me. I just felt like this last week, but for some reason, I snapped out of it and feel much better now. Hang in there.