[chalmette70043]

I walked down to my neighbors house last night just for company. I was bored and had to get out of the house for a little bit. I know they both smoke, but the last time i went over there i was okay while they smoked and resisted. Last night Benny hands it to me right under my nose and i couldnt resist. I know, pot, ain't no big deal. And i really don't think it is. But why do i feel so much guilt for having smoked. I can't even get straight in my head what the guilt could be caused from. Maybe it will come later.

[Rose3]

Maybe the guilt that you feel is because you let yourself down - since you went there only for the company, and allowed yourself to go along with something that you didn't really intend.

[Christina86]

I'm agreeing with Rose3 here.

((((((((((Chalmette))))))))))))))) perhaps avoiding your neighbours house for the time being would be a wise idea?

[chalmette70043]

Rose and Christina, i think ya'll right on this. It's what i'm going to do. At least for now.

Thank ya'll
chalmette

[nolababy121]

Hey Chalmette,

Not far from me Perhaps your guilt has something to do with the reason you decided to quit. Sometimes we feel guilt because we have not acted according to society standard of right and wrong. Kudos on trying to quit! Sometimes you take a step back, but you can keep walking.

[AceDread]

Originally Posted by nolababy121

Hey Chalmette,

Not far from me Perhaps your guilt has something to do with the reason you decided to quit. Sometimes we feel guilt because we have not acted according to society standard of right and wrong. Kudos on trying to quit! Sometimes you take a step back, but you can keep walking.

Perfectly said.

[chalmette70043]

Yeah ya'll right. Its been a year at least since i smoked when i use to pretty much all day long. Took a few weeks to get myself totally off of the smoking. Had to finish the bag.

Then i go and put myself in the position where its right in front of me. Weird though, cause i've had it right there before a good 4-5 times in the past year and just said nah. Dont want any. What got me to smoke the other day may have been stress. I am under alot of it right now. And having smoked made the guilt come and slap me and brought more stress. But like you said im trying to just say well, it happened and keep going on without visiting the pot outlets.

P.S. Nola, i made a thread in social about the MRGO. I dont know if it affected you. But just being from new orleans you might be interested in reading it. I mention the federal govt., i hope that isnt a trigger for you.

chalmette

[kittenkirk]

Originally Posted by chalmette70043

I walked down to my neighbors house last night just for company. I was bored and had to get out of the house for a little bit. I know they both smoke, but the last time i went over there i was okay while they smoked and resisted. Last night Benny hands it to me right under my nose and i couldnt resist. I know, pot, ain't no big deal. And i really don't think it is. But why do i feel so much guilt for having smoked. I can't even get straight in my head what the guilt could be caused from. Maybe it will come later.

People, places and things....if you go the barber shop, long enough, you'll get a haircut. You go to a bar (enough) you'll drink.

Also if you hang with ppl that smoke you're resistance will one day brake down.

Congrats for holding out for a while but if you truly want to stop you need to replace your old friends with new ones who don't use. Good luck!

btw there are fellowships that supportive to ppl who want to stop and stay stopped. And there you can make new friends who support you in your choice not to smoke and they won't push it on you. Don't beat yourself up cause you're stronger than they are...you have made a decision not to rely on mind altering substances to live your life. Enjoy yourself and be happy...no one can do that for you.

[chalmette70043]

hi kitten. i'm not the group meeting type of person at all. right now im pretty much being forced to go to a group meeting for 12 weeks. I really dont wanna say forced, but if i dont go, certain things don't happen outside of the meeting.

my friends i see maybe twice a year since the storm. two of them do smoke but they walk off without making a scene and smoke.

my neighbors i dont hang out with on a regular basis. maybe walk down there once/twice a month. But all my neighbors have their vice. All of them drink and that alone makes me want to. Usually i wont run off to the grocery and get something. But living down here its part of the life style.

i just have to be stronger in saying no. I dont get 'peer presure' from anyone. Nothing like that goes on. Its all adults so, what happens just happens.