[thunderbear]

I am addicted to Vicidon. Have been for a while. I don't write on this forum much because I have way more important issues so I write everywhere else. But anyway. I have been taking Vicidon for about 8 years now. Used to I would'nt even take a tylenoyl pm because I was afraid. But then my mom got sick and I had this toothache (turned out to be cellulitis) and she did'nt like her Vicodin cause it gave her nightmares so her onc. put her on morphine pills. Anyway she gave me a few of her Vicodin to take for my cellllitis. And i would take like a half of one (that makes me LOL now) Any way went on like that for a while. Then I quit. Then 6 years ago, my husband fell off a ladder and broke his arm. The doc gave him Demerol pills for the pain. Well I had been taking 10 mg Vicodin and decided to try the Demoral. So i took two pills form my husband when he was asleep one night. And loved them. I decided to never do Demoral again b/c I liked them too much. So now 6 years later, I can get any pain med I want because my back is wrecked (degenerative arthritis in my spine and two detatched mucsels in my neck.) so I can get them when ever. I went to the E/R one night and the doc took one look at my x-ray and gave me 25 10 mg Vicodins. And valium for the spasms. My problem right now is, I have'nt taken any pill of any kind for a month. I have'nt even went to my doc to renew my script. But I need to. My back is so bad I can't sit straight and the spasms are so bad that I can't lift my left arm. I live with my TENS unit hooked to me and at night sit in hot water (w/o the TENS of course, lol) waiting for the pan to stop. It hurts. They ask you whats your pain scale 1-10, ten being "I hurt so bad I wanna jump out of a window" mine is an 8. Constantly. I want to go to my doc and get some pain meds for this. But I don't know if that's cheating or what. I know my husband will control my pills but I have snuck them away alot of times before. I just hurt. And I don't wanna cheat on this whole sobriety thing. And one more thing, I am allergic to asprin, lips turn blue go into shock allergic, so they wont give me nsaids. And I can't take Tramadol with my Celexa. SO narcs are the only thing I can take. Before my best friend died he told me about Fentenoyl patch. He said it did'nt make him high or addicted but it works wonders for pain.

[Christina86]

Wow. ((((((thunderbear))))) that's a lot of stuff to have to go through.

I'm sorry for the pain you're in, that's a tough situation. I am glad your husband would moderate how much you'd take ... I don't know much about pain killers, but I do know some are more addictive than others. Perhaps talking to a doctor about another med with less addictive tendencies, or check any other therapy/treatment that doesn't involve taking pills?

I'm glad you've "come clean" about wanting to deal with this, it's a hard step to make.

Talk to your doc, thunder, get this sorted and get some relief from the pain.