[cocos421]

I'm bipolar, on a bunch of meds and usually unmotivated and lazy. I used to take cold pills with psudoephedrine to give me a little boost of energy. It helped a little. My husband found out and made me stop, so I did. For a few months. Two months ago, I started taking another over the counter medicine for asthma that contains ephedrine. It made me feel great! I had so much energy and felt very happy. I got so much done every day. And loved life. I even told my pdoc that the meds were working and how great I felt. I posted on here how great I was doing.
This went on for two months, then 3 days ago, my husband found the pills in my purse and got so mad at me. He took them off me. Now I am sooooo
tired and miserable. Why can't I be productive or happy on my own? Why do I need a pill to rely on? I've abused drugs in the past, too.
I just can't make it through the day today without sleeping off and on. I just want to sleep all day.
I get hooked on everything it seems.
I'm self destructive.

Hello, cocos421. Is professional help an option?

[jenkins09]

I am not bi-polar, but I too used to abuse ephedrine. Its a chemical imbalance, so it has nothing to do with you.

How is your nutrition? can you share what meds you're on? Don't beat yourself up. Your body was in fight or flight mode becasue of the ephedrine, and now that your off of it, you are going to crash hard. You will be depressed and tired.

Make sure you are eating nutrient dense foods and drinking lots of water. PM me if you want to talk more. Good luck.

[cocos421]

Thanks for the replies. Yes, I can seek counseling. I'm in the process of finding either a therapist or psychologist. I do see a pdoc now, but I don't know if I will tell her what I was doing.
My nutrition isn't very good at all. But I've been going for very long walks, like 2 hours on an upgrade, so that helps my moods a bit. It's nice to get out and see how beautiful the mountains are around here. Just moved here and didn't explore the area until now. It's so nice here.
I'm doing OK without the ephedrine, I think. I do crave it now and then however.

[Middman]

Originally Posted by cocos421

Thanks for the replies. Yes, I can seek counseling. I'm in the process of finding either a therapist or psychologist. I do see a pdoc now, but I don't know if I will tell her what I was doing.
My nutrition isn't very good at all. But I've been going for very long walks, like 2 hours on an upgrade, so that helps my moods a bit. It's nice to get out and see how beautiful the mountains are around here. Just moved here and didn't explore the area until now. It's so nice here.
I'm doing OK without the ephedrine, I think. I do crave it now and then however.

I thought they took that off the market, here,U.S. you have to have a perscription, because people where making crack with it.

[Perna]

It's just behind the counter and you have to ask the pharmacist for it and can't ask for 92,000 packages at once :-) but go to lots of different stores and be an adult and no one is the wiser, like shopping prescriptions you get from multiple doctors.

Cocos, it's probably going to take awhile before you can do things on your own because you've gotten your body so use to doing things another way that's ultimately harmful to it. I would think of it like you do your walking and like you maybe are going to work on your nutrition? Try a good quality B complex vitamin; that might help with your energy more.

[sunrise]

cocos, I think you should talk to your pdoc about this. It is a sign that your regular prescriptions are not as successful as he/she thought they were. Someone who is prescribing meds to us needs to know all the drugs we are taking, both prescription and over-the-counter. The fact that you want to sleep all day long is definitely something you should tell your pdoc. That isn't normal. Perhaps the pdoc is prescribing a med for you that is making you lethargic and sleepy. He/she needs to know so he can make adjustments. Good luck with the therapist hunt.

[cocos421]

Thanks, sunrise. I have mentioned the ephedrine use to my pdoc. She ended up increasing my Abilify up to 20mg. I don't really know why. I tell her that I am always lacking motivation and tired. She tells me to push myself. I would think that if ephedrine made me so happy and energetic, then maybe there is some type of drug similiar that I would benefit from? I asked for Adderall a few months back, but she said no.