relapsed

Kinda intoxicated at the moment. My body hurt too bad plus this guy was willing to get wasted with me. Not trying to get people to get into this, but I am loving this. Wish I could drink more but this feels great right now. I love the buzz so much that it's killing me.

Gosh, this is pathetic. But that is what addiction is all about. My boyfriend and I are contemplating on rehab. Mostly because the only support I have is him, my parents drink all the time. My mother is supposed to be on a 2 glass a night limit during the week days but she lies to my father and gets me to lie about it because she usually drinks around 8 a night. On the weekend it's usually twice that amount.

My parents are in it so bad that they have court. My parents got so wasted at my aunt's party that my father ended up punching my mom in the face, breaking her nose and giving her a black eye. The cops saw my father's pipe (for marijuana). He started blaming it on me (even though I quit smoking) but my mom being a good mother took the blame. My mom was in jail for 4 hours for parifenilia (too drunk to spell correctly) and my father for domestic violence. The house has been very stressful and eerie, that's why I escaped to my boyfriend's.

I want to quit, I don't want to end up like my parents and relatives but I'm already there. %$#^. This sucks. For those who are reading this, I wouldn't suggest getting into drugs and alcohol like I have. It ruins your $#%^ing life.

my father was in jail for 12 hours sorry...guess it doesnt matter. Grandma bailed them out.

your still trying to hit your bottom. we will all be here when that happens and be here for you to get through it if you would like. i do know and understand the drama that transpires through the family. hopefully you will take what we all have to give in opinions and advice.

Some of us have all varied type of experiences a bunch of "been there, done that, and decided to loop it a few times"

on your journey

darla, have you considered attending ACOA re your parent's addictions? their probs affect your life too in a negative way. ACOA helps you help yourself while living in their chaotic life. they may not stop using but you can learn ways to cope and refuse to enable them too tho i don't believe u''re enabling them. idk.
as for you, racee said it well. i just hope you are the fortunate one who fixes your addictions and not become a statistic. i feel you want to change. i know you are struggling with this. if you can get help-detox-it will give you a jump start away from your addictions. glad you r considering taking this measure.as for relapse many of us had to pick ourselves up and start over. no need to beat yourself up. you can be successful the more you want to be clean and sober.

Darla get your fanny to AA. Do it before this disease KILLS YOU. Do you know how many young people have died from alcohol poisoning?? Too darned many!!! Please -- this is ruining your life -- don't keep drinking until you're REALLY in trouble. Get some help thru AA. They will help you thru this -- they saved my life. And they can save yours too, IF you are willing to go to any lengths to stay sober!! You have to do some of the work too! You've got to be willing.

Please -- call them -- talk to somebody at AA. I promise that you won't regret it. God bless. Hugs, Lee

I want to but my father disapproves of AA and thinks I'm fine anyways. No one will give me a ride there and I don't have a car at the moment... And I have been to the hospital for ODing on pills and also for alcohol poisoning. Don't remember it much though. Bleh.

darla every community has an AA hotline. google it for your area or use phone book. if you call and ask for a ride a woman will pick you up to take you to a meeting. this hopefully will occur for you. it's our way of carrying the message.
i forget your age, sorry, but your parents balk AA cause they know they need to fix themselves too but choose not to. it's frightening to a drunk to have a loved one get sober. it's too close to home if you get my meaning. my ex-hubby- a drunk-said to me-weak ppl like you go to AA. he'd wrapped his car while drunk around a tree 3 weeks before!!
i do hope you will try this measure-calling AA, it may save your life and what a beautiful life it could be. i hope you keep reaching out to us. we're not there tho so you gotta do some footwork.

Wow, that's terrible and inhumane for someone to tell an other that it's weak to try to get help for an addiction. And I hate to admit my parents are addicted, but they very much are. My father has "recovered" so many times but every time something really stressful and painful happens, he turns back to the alcohol.

I'm trying to stay sober again, I'm getting really shaky and my bones are aching uuuugh. So I'm going to do what you said and call the AA hotline and see if someone could get me a ride. It's going to be difficult when the only real support I have is my boyfriend.

Why did I allow myself to get this bad? I was so stupid back when I was 15...I graduated high school and decided I didn't want to go to college...only because I had connections where I already was and was too much of a weakling to go without drugs. They really messed up my life. I was living on my own and now I'm 20 and back living with my drunk parents. I NEED TO GET SOBER because I'm finally going to college this August. I won't be able to do it if I'm going through withdrawals then, or worse, using while at school.

Sorry for the long reply, have a lot on my mind.