[BamaSurvivor]

I'm not exactly sure where I'm going with this, but something (maybe my HP) is telling me I need to post.

While in active addiction, our lives had become unmanagable. We were doing everything we could to keep our high/drunk, including hurting the ones we loved. Some of us stole, some of us lied, some of us munipulated... Well, most of us did. We were destroying our minds, bodies, and spirit just to get and keep a high/drunk. Some of us would get so desperate to get and keep the high/drunk that we'd go to extreme measures to get it. This is all part of the havoc that we call addiction. But now we have a choice! We have to choice to leave behind our destructive addiction and get into the beauty of sobriety.

Many alcoholics and addicts go back to using after getting into recovery because they become bored with recovery. They were so used to the misery of addiction and the lifestyle that they'd rather be miserable than making a better life for themselves. You gotta admit, most of us addicts have went and seen some crazy things and our lives were pretty much a nonstop party or it was always chaos. So yes, in the beginning of recovery, most of the time, it seems boring compared to that chaotic lifestyle we were living. BUT! It doesn't have to stay that way. Recovery/sobriety can and is a beautiful thing. If you're working your own program like you should, sobriety will hardly ever be boring. You'll eventually make CLEAN friends, have projects and things that you can do as part of a group, you can always find something to do in recovery. Granted, it may not seem quite as exciting as drugging/drunking, but at least in recovery I know what I'm doing with a sound mind rather than living a life of chaos and barely knowing what the hell I've been doing because I'm too doped up to remember.

What does it say in the big book? Give recovery a try. That life of misery is always there waiting for you to come back to it if you don't like recovery. So, just for today, let's try the life of sobriety. Let's keep our lives from going back to the unmanagability that was us for so long. It's always still there if you decide you want that lifestyle back.

[Raynaadi]

Very nice Bama, thanks!