I thought I would post this here as this has become an addiction for me

I am ashamed to admit that I am addicted to harming myself, Today has been a very warm day and people were looking at my arms as they have cuts and scars from past couple of weeks.

I can't help it though, I feel anger, emotion and then I hurt myself, I have tried to stop but I can't.

((( Tink ))) ... I do this too ... It's not one of my finer coping mechanisms, but it's the one I've been doing for ever since I can remember (way on back into my early childhood), and it's very difficult to not just automatically return to it whenever I'm feeling extra nervous, yucky, or even when life is generally just feeling out of or beyond control for me ...

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Pfrog!

Yeah pfrog it is when I do it too, Lately though it has been everyday
I see my T next Monday maybe it is something I will discuss with her if I have the courage to do so (((pfrog)))

[SoupDragon]

You have been going through such a tough time Tinkerbell and I know for me that SI can have some instant results in terms of reducing my overwhelm. It would be good to share this with your T, so she can gauge how you are. My T knows that I do, but we rarely talk about it - in fact I think he knew even before I admitted it.

Be gentle with yourself. Soup

((( Tink ))) ... Here's hoping you find the courage to talk with T about it ... It was one of the more difficult things I found to bring up, but once that I did and saw that my therapist didn't get all grossed out about it, it actually helped me to see that I'm not such a freak after all ... And, Tink? ... Neither are you ...

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Pfrog!

[splitimage]

Self-injury is something I struggle with too. It's been a part of my life off and on since I was 10 and I'm 43 now. It's been over 6 months now that I've self harmed, so it is possible to stop. But it takes time and practice and learning other coping skills, to replace the behaviour. I'd urge you to talk to your therapist about it.

You might also see if you can get into a DBT program. DBT is intense, but I found it really helpful in learning to regulate my emotions without using any of my negative addictive behaviours.

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