[Leed]

Days of Healing, Days of Joy ~ A Hazelden book

"I didn't know I'd have to tear down before I could build up"...........Eleanor F.

Why should recovery, which we want, be such a struggle? Usually, reaching out for what we want takes far less effort. But recovering is not just a matter of doing something, but of undoing what we've spent years building up.

We are experts at being afraid to stand up for ourselves, at feeling guilty for giving ourselves a break, and at panicking when things work out too well. For many of us those feelings are as much a part of us as our fingerprints.

Now we are training ourselves to go against some strong feelings. We are doing what it takes to get what we want despite our feelings. The problem is that our feelings are us. Just as the desire and struggle for recovery are us. It's civil war!

No wonder recovery is a struggle. And the issue can't be whether or not it will hurt; it will. The issue is this - which path will take us where we want to go, one step at a time?
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Today, I pray for the courage to live with inner conflict. I will not frustrate myself by expecting recovery to be easy.

[Travelinglady]

Thanks, Leed!