[wakefromchaos1]

I've been getting to the point of black-out drinking. I relapsed again on Friday night believing just a couple of glasses of wine would not get me drunk and I don't remember what I did after that. It's not like I'm dying to drink all the time, but when I do it's a binge, and I cannot stop myself. I lose all power when I drink that first drink. My wife is fed up with me at this point and she doesn't believe that I'm serious at all about quitting drinking. I suppose she's right, but I've got to stop. I'm going to an AA meeting tonight. The problem is that I suffer from social anxiety and feel like turning to stone when I'm around a lot of people. That's part of the reason I drink!

[spondiferous]

How did your meeting go?
Welcome to PC.
Alcoholism is exactly what the Alcoholics Anonymous book says it is: cunning, baffling and powerful. I have been sober 7 years now. Going to the meetings is hard but you will get used to it. Hopefully you will manage to find a welcoming group of people. The thing with AA is that you don't have to worry about what to say because for once you are in a room full of people who have felt exactly how you do.
You can message me if you ever need someone to talk to. I hope you got to that meeting tonight and didn't drink. But regardless of what happens, remember that tomorrow you can try again.

[gismo]

Yep spondiferous is right, and you drink because your addicted my freind, your social anxiety does not help really, i tried AA but did'nt get on very well, but i hope you do go and try it,if we alcoholics are powerless over that first drink,if we did not take that first drink we would be the one in power?
gismo x

[wakefromchaos1]

Thank you for your responses. Yes, I did manage to go to a meeting and did talk to a couple of peope before and after. There was some anxiety but I managed to get through it. I'm feeling pretty good and I don't have any cravings. It was good to hear from the speaker that you just find someone to identify with and I tried to do that. One step at a time

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[avlady]

I attended a few meetings years ago when i was drinking, and it did put my drinking in prospective, I ended up going through the medical system and getting meds instead of drinking and it was the best thing i did for myself. I think the AA meetings helped me get the help i needed

[spondiferous]

The thing I like about AA is that it's accessible. There are meetings everywhere. I wish that other treatment and self-help meetings were like that, but sadly they're not. Even if a person doesn't identify with the program itself, it's still a place to go to hear people talk about their disease and how they're staying sober. And if the messages at the meeting don't jive with what you believe, spiritually or whatever, you can always hang out with recovery people outside of meetings too. I went to AA for years and was really active. When the mental health stuff hit I had to back off. I'm back and forth now.