[brknhearted]

No, its not just a song... its a life and I lead it.

Last January I lost my mother to COPD. I am an only child and have always been very close with my parents. I was spoiled with love and was the center of their affections and attention. I was my mothers world. My parents were the ultimate role models, falling short of their 50th wedding anniversary before mom passed.

I tell you all of that to say this: When I lost my mother my world fell apart. The very cornerstone of my life was gone and my world began to crumble. I wasn't long before we lost her that I began seeing a man that what I thought was prince charming, but turns out- he was only my numbing agent to the pain and loss of losing a parent.

So I humbly come to you asking for help. After doing some research, I know NOW that I am addicted to him. No different than an alcoholic who needs the fix from the beer... he is my "fix". I need help walking away and letting that go, because it is not healthy and it is killing me.

Desperate... needing a support group.