[Adelfnv]

I crave it. I need it. It makes me feel safe. It makes me feel happy.

Are you referring to Internet? Like certain videos or websites?

[Adelfnv]

Yes, I am, although I wouldn't mind seeing it in real life.

[Travelinglady]

Do you have any idea why you are attracted to it?

[Adelfnv]

I'm not exactly sure, but I think it helps me relieve all the anger I feel somehow. It is known among my friends that I tend to push my anger down.

[Travelinglady]

That makes sense. I am concerned that you would like to see gore in real life. I really suggest you see a therapist about your anger to find better ways to get it under control and get in touch with it to start with.

Were you abused? Then you might check out the Survivors of Abuse forum here. Many folks who were abused have great anger. Here is that link: http://forums.psychcentral.com/survivors-abuse/.

We also have a Coping with Emotions forum. I stuffed my anger for years and years because I was not allowed to express it when I was a child. Therapy has helped me to get it out and to deal with it better.

[Adelfnv]

I am actually currently under the abuse of my mother...thank you.

[Travelinglady]

I am so sorry. Make sure to post about it in the Survivors of Abuse forum, please. It's also for people who are surviving current abuse.