[scar12346]

How does someone even get addicted to LSD.. okay fine.. a week clean, hard hard very hard week.. but no LSD in it.... and you know what, I tried weed for the first time in my very very ****ed up life. And I tried it before school. By night I was asking around for someone selling weed. A week on only weed and my casual anti-anxiety meds and I might say that if I go a day without weed it would heighten my episode that I would be in. If I am depressed, than without weed I would go to sever depression, if I'm being psychotic, without weed I will be so out of the world, if in the rare instance I have mania.. without weed you better run. I just got used to the happiness that weed brought me, but with the rate that I am smoking it and the fact that I've never smoked anything else before (except the occasional experiment from someone's garage that tried mixing heroin and some herb together) and the fact that my lungs are already in a very very bad shape and I have a heart problem.. does not help. The pain that I feel each time I breath in is unbearable, old me would probably get high on something else that blocks out the pain but it's new me now.
I am now one day sober from weed and that is the hardest day ever. Whenever I would feel that sharp pain in my heart, lungs and throat I would usually turn again to weed to remove it.. but now that I can't.. And I am in a very very serious depressive episode. But I know that as soon as I turn back to weed I would go to hell again.
Why do I always have to harm myself in one way..
Anyways to whoever is trying to cut down drugs and alcohol.. believe me it's not easy. I probably have been addicted to almost everything there is. The hardest addictions I've had to fight were heroin, LSD and alcohol, but I did stop them. 1 year clean of heroin, 6 months of alcohol and a month of LSD. Everything is possible if you fight long enough, and believe me you are strong enough. If a depressed, queer high school student, who was recently diagnosed with Bipolar and has been bullied way to much, can do it.. I believe you can as well.

[Angelique67]

Wow! Scar12346, you are doing amazingly well. You will thank yourself when you're older and you dont have any of the diseases that can come with decades of using drugs and alcohol. You are an inspiration.