[MtnTime2896]

I'm an alcoholic. I'll never deny it, but I don't want to change it. Maybe I'm not ready, maybe I don't see it as a problem because I "keep it in check".

Where does that land me?

[emgreen]

Originally Posted by Só leigheas

I'm an alcoholic. I'll never deny it, but I don't want to change it. Maybe I'm not ready, maybe I don't see it as a problem because I "keep it in check".

Where does that land me?

It's not my job, or anyone elses' job to criticize you or try to change you. I acknowledged I was an alcoholic for a long time before I quit drinking...I'm sure most of us do. Good luck, but be careful.

[Kuras]

It lands you in a place that can be summarized as you not being done. Before my life had completely broken apart and I found myself feeling irredeemable and constantly wanting to die, there was nothing anyone could have done to convince me to stop using and drinking.

I pray that you never have to reach the point that I and others have reached. My use of alcohol became so pervasive that ceasing to drink literally almost killed me, not to mention the other drugs. If you are an actual alcoholic/addict, just know that addiction never relents and it will always be progressive.

[Misssy2]

Originally Posted by Só leigheas

I'm an alcoholic. I'll never deny it, but I don't want to change it. Maybe I'm not ready, maybe I don't see it as a problem because I "keep it in check".

Where does that land me?

You are not ready...and nothing will change until you are ready.

[MtnTime2896]

So, through reading this and talking with a close friend of mine, I think quitting is worth a shot. I've slowly and significantly lowered the amount I drink to nothing (I had a beer this week and that's it). I want to thank you guys for being so supportive and not judging. We'll see how I do on this sobriety train. Wish me luck.

[Fuzzybear]

Good luck
(I might try to cut down too, (partly because) my bear tummy is getting too big again, maybe because of the wine I have every night with my salmon

[emgreen]

Lots of luck, Só leigheas. I'm glad you had a good conversation with your friend & sound a bit happier & optimistic. Just me, but I always hated myself after I went out drinking heavily. There was a lot of guilt involved. It sounds like you're trying to break free from a cycle (however you might characterize that cycle). Way to go!

[splitimage]

Good luck. Sobriety is hard work, or at least it was for me, in the beginning. It's getting easier now. I'm glad that you talked to your friend, and decided to give not drinking a try, because alcoholism only gets worse.

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