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Default Mar 09, 2017 at 02:39 PM
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First it was just thoughts of using. Usually at that stage the thoughts will quickly go, but this time I became obsessed with thinking about the drugs. Reliving the good times I had. Now I'm craving like crazy.

I've talked to my counselor and opened up to some friends in my meetings last night about my thoughts of using. I'm trying to use my tools, but feel like my mind is going crazy right now. Racing thoughts, roller coaster of emotions. I feel alone in a world full of people.

When I got clean again in May I had deleted everyone's number that was associated with my use. The drugs are so easy to get though and I've found a connection. I'm supposed to meet them after work.

I'm rambling at this point.. I better go.

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I don't know what to say except to hope that you will find the strength to resist this urge
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Default Mar 10, 2017 at 05:50 AM
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I don't know what to say except to hope that you will find the strength to resist this urge
Thanks for the hugs! It's very appreciated. I let the urge get the best of me last night. It hasn't really hit me that I gave up my clean time, but it will soon enough.

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