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Default Jun 07, 2017 at 12:27 PM
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I already wrote this in the BP forum but yeah I drank. all that headway flushed down the tubes in one night because I let my pain get the best of me

really really sux right now

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Default Jun 07, 2017 at 12:51 PM
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You can always come back. It won't be like completely starting over. Just take it in stride and fight the "F it... might as well" line of thinking.

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Default Jun 07, 2017 at 01:26 PM
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thanks moogs.

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I used to rule the world
Seas would rise when I gave the word
Now in the morning, I sleep alone
Sweep the streets I used to own
I used to roll the dice
Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes
Listen as the crowd would sing
Now the old king is dead! Long live the king!
One minute I held the key
Next the walls were closed on me
And I discovered that my castles stand
Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand
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I used to rule the world
Seas would rise when I gave the word
Now in the morning, I sleep alone
Sweep the streets I used to own
I used to roll the dice
Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes
Listen as the crowd would sing
Now the old king is dead! Long live the king!
One minute I held the key
Next the walls were closed on me
And I discovered that my castles stand
Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand
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Default Jun 08, 2017 at 03:57 AM
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i guess my emojis from a different app don't work on this site....



i been there....relapsed several times this year...

in recovery again....:-(
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Default Jun 08, 2017 at 06:48 AM
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I've relapsed multiple times over the years that I've been struggling with my drinking problem.

I'm not condoning it, but it's also not the end of the world. Treat it as a learning experience - what triggered the relapse, and what could you do differently the next time you feel the same way or in the same situation.

I also don't believe you've thrown away your previous sober time. You had it, so you obviously learned some coping skills, now's the time to strengthen them. Sure you've had a break in continuous sober time, if your counting, but you're not starting from the same place that you were in when you very first made the decision to stop.

Keep us posted on how you're doing.

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Default Jun 08, 2017 at 03:35 PM
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thank you guys

I'm not turning to escape in a bottle again. it only made things ten times worse. I'm going to just put it behind me
like you guys said the sober time I had still means alot!

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I used to rule the world
Seas would rise when I gave the word
Now in the morning, I sleep alone
Sweep the streets I used to own
I used to roll the dice
Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes
Listen as the crowd would sing
Now the old king is dead! Long live the king!
One minute I held the key
Next the walls were closed on me
And I discovered that my castles stand
Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand
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...I let my pain get the best of me
Step One is where I finally gave up the fight against alcohol and whatever else and admitted I was totally powerless to stop my pain or anything else from ever again getting the best of me. I was completely unable to manage my own life out of my mess and into right relations with the world around me, and there were not enough cheerleaders or "support" anywhere in the world to make any difference there. You will almost never hear about that level of "dropping the shovel" in today's AA, but there at a complete Step One is where permanent recovery from chronic alcoholism can truly begin.

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