How the hell?

How did i do it? All hell broke loose earlier tonite. I was sitting here in chat, then i hear two huge explosions outside. Everything went pitch black. I thought it was Murphy blowing up again. I went out to see what was going on. Neighbors were all coming out and everything was in darkness as far as you could see. Then two state cop cars come flying down the street. At first we thought it was just transformers that blew. Cause thats just pretty much the norm. But seeing the cops we stood there wondering what happened. A few minutes passed and one of the cars came back down the street and the trooper was telling us what had happened. After he left, everyone decided to walk down to the corner to see it. Everyone went to lock their doors and they all came back out with either a glass of wine or a beer. And i had a water. It almost came out my mouth to ask one of them for a beer. But i just shook my head and took a sip of the water and lit a cigarette. We got to the corner and just craziness going on. Fire trucks, cops, neighbors from other streets on thier corners and cars passing just to see what happened. One of the firemen came over to talk to us talking about what happened. Their was one of those really big 18 wheelers half in the street and half on someones lot. Two electrical poles down and wires down everywhere. The trucker was from out of town coming to pick up sacks of oysters. And someone told him to turn at the Gulf Coast Bank. Thing is, he turned at the wrong one. And went right down Campagna street. When he got to the corner, just like almost every corner down here. The manhole covers are off with huges pipes coming out of them and its all barracaded around it. Since he couldnt get around it, he went over the slab on the corner lot and took out two poles and the main transformer for our area. When the transformer blew it caught fire. That was the explosions we all heard.

Well the trucker is this old guy and the cops are all yelling at him giving em a really hard time. Everyone is getting hot, cause jeeze, this guy aint from here, he dont know. He made a mistake. And the cops were being such assholes. While all this is going on, tara goes and gets her bottle and barrett grabs a bag and fills it with beers. Threw this whole thing that ended up lasting 4 hours, i never drank a sip of it.

Today is four days sober. And im glad i didnt drink.

Chalm, congrats on 4 days sober!!!! That is a great accomplishment!! That sounds like a stressful situation. It is difficult for me to witness somebody else being harassed...I admire your sense of compassion.

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Threw this whole thing that ended up lasting 4 hours, i never drank a sip of it.

Today is four days sober. And im glad i didnt drink.

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and that is the most important thing! you didnt even touch that %#@&#!! Chal, ive seen you posting on here for quite a while, and ive viewed such growth in you, its amazing. im truly so happy to see you grow as a person. Im glad YOU are glad you didnt drink!! =] Congrats on four days!

(((((((((((((many hugs!))))))))))))

sistah...i'm proud of you...i know you can do it..bluevixen

WOW!!!!!!!!!!!

Tears came to my eyes when I read that you didn't drink through that. Do you know how huge that is???? Sooooo very proud of you Chalm. You just proved to yourself that you can make it through a stressful situation where other people ran for their beers and you did it. WOW so very very proud of you!!!!!!!!

Add me to the proud list! Congrats on 4 days!

Cyran0

Chalm,

That's great - to get through a stressful situation when everyone else is drinking is amazing.

Congrats on the 4 days.

--splitimage

Thank you all for your kind words. You all made me feel better. I'm on new meds i started yesterday. I upped and quit the last one and just went really down to a bad spot for the past few weeks. Last week at my t appt she kinda got through to me, through this thick head of mine. And from later that day i made the decision that i really do want to quit. I joined the aa online meeting site with encouragemnt from my pdoc. I havent gone to the meetings yet, but did look around the forums some. And i'm going to start reading zen recovery tonite.

I made a choice today and kinda pissed off my boyfriend. But, oh well. He had gotten tickets for the saints game tomorrow and wanted me to go. I probably would have gone, but the thing is, at 10am him and the guys are all meeting up at a local bar and starting the partying then. The game dont start to 3pm. I told him i didnt want to go to the bar and he told me, well just drink sprite or something. For 5 hours he wants me to watch them all drink and get buzzed, then go to the game and watch them drink more, then go to a bar after and drink even more. I just told him you go and have fun. Instead, i'm going to take my nephew up to the flea market so he can get his poppy and dd their christmas presents. We'll walk a little on Decatur by the shops there. I wont have much temptation to drink in that area, only thing around there is Jimmy's Margaritaville. And we dont have to take that corner. Tres' is looking forward to eating at Johnnys and getting his fried mussels. So if he has fun and enjoys himself, it'll make me feel better.

And i made it another day.

Hugs to you all, Depressme, Mel, Rayna, Cyrano, Blue and Split. ((((((((all of you))))))))))

Well done on deciding to take care of yourself, and it sounds like you'll have fun with your nephew.

--splitimage

Wow very good to hang out with your nephew instead. What a good decision!!!

Seriously, you sound like a totally different woman.

Thanks Split and Rayna. Yes, we getting ready to head up to the French Quarter in just a few minutes.

I'm trying to change my mindset and go another way around things now. I'm running alot into those dead end streets, but so far i've been able to turn around and go the other way. The biggest of celebrations down here are coming up soon and last through about 5 months. I'm just not trying to think of it and just let it come when it does. Right now i'm going minute by minute, hour by hour. And i've got a lot of scaredy-cat in me.

A healthy fear of those dangerous places is a good thing to have.

And you're right, its just minute by minute, hour by hour and day by day......keep on keepin on, you're doing great!

I am just so proud of you my friend!

((((((((((chalm)))))))))))))))))
SO proud of you , you are not a scardy cat GIRL you are a tiger
Keep going minute by minute hour by hour day by day
YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYA

Good for you (((Chalmette))) for not drinking through all of that. 4 days is GREAT. Take care. Soidhonia

I didnt tell anyone about what happened yesterday and i think it started getting to me last night. I had a nightmare about it and off and on thought about it today. Its makeing me want to change my mind and drink so damn bad. I searched the house last night but i couldnt find anything. And i'm still sitting here dying for a drink.

I came this close to getting mugged with my nephew when we were leaving the flea market walking past the mint to the truck yesterday. Two guys walking towards us were acting funny and my street sense kicked in fast. I told Tres' to turn and run and go tell the cop at the end of the flea market someone had a gun down this way. He looked at me scared, and i said stern just do it, run, go now. He ran. There was no way i would have made it, i'm a very slow runner and my back wold have been to them. So i confronted them. The one guy grabbed my arm to pull my purse away and with my left arm i punched at his chest and he punched me back in the face. He hit me agian on side my face and i heard the cops come up behind me. One of the guys got away, the one that hit me was caught. I just got a black eye, thats it. But, my nephew was shocked by it. I talked to him the whole way home from the quarter and he just kept saying he dont wanna talk about it. He says hes alright today. I asked him if he had dreams about it and he said no. He told me after it happened he didnt see the guy hit me, but this even ing when he saw my eye he said he saw the guy swing. I been mugged before, held up and %#@&#!. But my nephew never has and im really angry that he had to go through this. He talks to the counsler at his school when ever he wants. I asked him if he was going to talk to her about this. He told me he might mention it to her. I know for myself, stuff like this has happened so often, i just blow it off. But i dont want him to do that. I dont want him to keep this bottled up inside like i do. His grandmother and poppy tried to talk to him about it, but he just said yeah, it wasnt nothing. He talked about the cop breaking the guys nose, cause it was bloody. but thats it. I cant get this off my mind and i want a drink so i can forget about it. Just get drunk and pass out. Why am i so scared to face my emotions? this is so hard.

Chalm,

I'm so sorry that happened - it must have been very scary. I can totally understand wanting to drink and just make the feelings go away. But drinking won't change what happened and it won't make the situation any better, so please try and hang in there.

Glad your nephew is able to talk to a councilor at school..

--splitimage

WOW! way to go, girl!