[FireWorld]

This is my second relapse.
And I hate myself right now
I got what I wanted, and I feel the rush ive been craving. But there's so much guilt.
I don't know how to get better. I have resolve, I want to get clean... but every time o get a chance I give in
Help

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm so sorry you're struggling so much, FireWorld Please don't be so hard on yourself. Relapses can happen. It's not your fault. It's clear that you want to get better, but it's not always so easy. Do you see a therapist? Maybe that could help. You could learn new ways to cope with your addiction. There are also some support groups that you could join if you haven't already. Just try to get as much help as you need. You deserve to get better. Don't be afraid to ask for help. Fighting addictions is never easy. Please don't feel guilty about it. It seems clear that you want to get better, otherwise you would have not reached out here to us. I'm sure you'll be able to get through this. It will just take time and some effort. But it can be done. Just try to get some help if you can. Do you have a support system IRL? Any friends or family members that you can reach out? I'm so sorry. It must be very hard for you. Please don't give up. We're here for you if you need to talk about it. We all care about you here. We all love you here. Feel free to vent here as much as you need and want. You know we won't judge you. I promise you that. Just try to do your best. That's all you can do. Take all the time you need. Just take it one step at the time. Take baby steps. I'm sure you're a wonderful person. Stay strong, FireWorld. Stay safe and take care of yourself. You're awesome! You're strong! You're a warrior! Try to hang on. I'm so sorry, I know it's hard. Please don't give up. I hope things will get better soon for you. Is there anything we can do to help you? Plese let us know. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this

[jackiedoupe]

I'm sorry to hear about your relapse experience. Addiction is not any easy thing to overcome, but it definitely is possible. There are many different resources that can help you. It may be helpful to talk to a medical professional, as well as a trusted friend or family member. Have you looked into therapy? There are also rehab centers that do a great job helping those who struggle with addiction. Never stop believing in yourself. Wishing you all the best.

[mote.of.soul]

Just keep pluggin' away FireWorld and notch it all up to experience. I think as long as you have the desire to stay clean then that makes it very possible. I suggest meetings where practically everyone will know exactly what you're experiencing too. Support. Safety in numbers.

[sarahsweets]

When I relapsed I felt tremendous shame and guilt. Someone told me to put down the bat because I had beaten myself up enough already.

[Tiredmom19]

2 1/2 years clean and all it took was my ex asking if I still knew ppl to get me thinking about it and craving it. I stepped off the ledge of smart, cautious, rational thinking and plunged right into dumb selfish ***** addict! That was 3 weeks ago and I still haven’t really stop because I don’t have time in my life to come down crashing back to earth, reality, responsibility, and severe consequences. I swore last time I’d never touch the **** again because it wasn’t worth it and yet here I am up third day straight and praying to God for help, protection, and forgiveness... sorry I word vomited lol. Hope I didn’t offend or trigger anyone. Thank you for the outlet to share my humbling experience

[sarahsweets]

@Tiredmom19:

Originally Posted by Tiredmom19

2 1/2 years clean and all it took was my ex asking if I still knew ppl to get me thinking about it and craving it. I stepped off the ledge of smart, cautious, rational thinking and plunged right into dumb selfish ***** addict! That was 3 weeks ago and I still haven’t really stop because I don’t have time in my life to come down crashing back to earth, reality, responsibility, and severe consequences. I swore last time I’d never touch the **** again because it wasn’t worth it and yet here I am up third day straight and praying to God for help, protection, and forgiveness... sorry I word vomited lol. Hope I didn’t offend or trigger anyone. Thank you for the outlet to share my humbling experience

If you do not mind me asking, what is your drug of choice?

[Tiredmom19]

Ive been battling that ***** Crystal meth off and on for 6 years.