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Old Jul 21, 2023 at 03:01 AM
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As funny as this sounds, Naltrexone kinda makes me feel like I'm on opioids minus the high

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Old Jul 24, 2023 at 03:43 PM
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I've been sober for a few 24 hours but I still get tripped up sometimes...I don't drink, but I still can still get into "stinkin' thinkin." I may sound like I've been brainwashed by AA, but I can't afford resentments. I've got fire in my belly today; the kind that would have sent me out drinking in the past.

I have a friend I go to baseball games and concerts with several times a year. I called & left a message to let him know what he owed me for a game we went to Saturday. I bought the tickets all the way back in March, which is a long fking time ago. He said he paid me back in March, which I didn't recall. It wasn't so much the fact that he thought he paid me, but it was the accusatory tone in his voice that shocked me. We've been friends for over 20 years, and his friendship was worth more than a few bucks to me. I'm not going to call him back until I settle down a bit...I just hate carrying around this resentment.

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Old Jul 25, 2023 at 08:30 AM
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I've been sober for a few 24 hours but I still get tripped up sometimes...I don't drink, but I still can still get into "stinkin' thinkin." I may sound like I've been brainwashed by AA, but I can't afford resentments. I've got fire in my belly today; the kind that would have sent me out drinking in the past.

I have a friend I go to baseball games and concerts with several times a year. I called & left a message to let him know what he owed me for a game we went to Saturday. I bought the tickets all the way back in March, which is a long fking time ago. He said he paid me back in March, which I didn't recall. It wasn't so much the fact that he thought he paid me, but it was the accusatory tone in his voice that shocked me. We've been friends for over 20 years, and his friendship was worth more than a few bucks to me. I'm not going to call him back until I settle down a bit...I just hate carrying around this resentment.

...So I thought I'd do an emotional drop here. Thanks for reading.
Congratulations it takes time to deal with addiction. about how your friend is treating you

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Old Jul 25, 2023 at 07:44 PM
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Old Jul 30, 2023 at 09:50 AM
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I can really identify with the lyrics to this song:

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Old Aug 08, 2023 at 03:51 PM
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Hey all, itís been a while since I posted here.

I did really well in abstaining from alcohol. I was sober for a year and a half but along side my nurse I was seeing, we thought Iíd be okay to see if I can moderate.

That must have been a year or over now but I have creeped up in usage again.. Now I am slowly cutting back and adding sober days by myself and looking forward to being sober again. I think itís time to accept no amount of alcohol will do me any good.

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Hey all, itís been a while since I posted here.

I did really well in abstaining from alcohol. I was sober for a year and a half but along side my nurse I was seeing, we thought Iíd be okay to see if I can moderate.

That must have been a year or over now but I have creeped up in usage again.. Now I am slowly cutting back and adding sober days by myself and looking forward to being sober again. I think itís time to accept no amount of alcohol will do me any good.
Awesome. Keep up the great work

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Old Aug 16, 2023 at 04:16 PM
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Oops wrong chat.

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Old Aug 21, 2023 at 04:21 PM
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Hey all, itís been a while since I posted here.

I did really well in abstaining from alcohol. I was sober for a year and a half but along side my nurse I was seeing, we thought Iíd be okay to see if I can moderate.

That must have been a year or over now but I have creeped up in usage again.. Now I am slowly cutting back and adding sober days by myself and looking forward to being sober again. I think itís time to accept no amount of alcohol will do me any good.
I'm in a similar situation. After ~8 years sober, I began using again a few months ago. It's getting out of control again, and it has caused me to miss work today. I'm not using right now, but I feel sick from last night's use. I need to stop, but I fear I can't stop without seeking professional help.

Last time, I got sober by entering treatment. My mother paid for this as I did not have the means to afford it myself. I'm ashamed because I've let her down for no good reason. I feel like I have to hide it from her this time because of this.
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Old Aug 22, 2023 at 10:52 PM
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I went to the hospital because I was extremely sick after using again last night. They're referring me to an addictions specialist.
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I went to the hospital because I was extremely sick after using again last night. They're referring me to an addictions specialist.
Itís probably for the best

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There have been relatively few posts here lately. I guess everyone has been cured of their alcoholism/addiction. Sorry; I'm just being a smart arse...
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I'm in a similar situation. After ~8 years sober, I began using again a few months ago. It's getting out of control again, and it has caused me to miss work today. I'm not using right now, but I feel sick from last night's use. I need to stop, but I fear I can't stop without seeking professional help.

Last time, I got sober by entering treatment. My mother paid for this as I did not have the means to afford it myself. I'm ashamed because I've let her down for no good reason. I feel like I have to hide it from her this time because of this.
It takes time.

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I'm in a similar situation. After ~8 years sober, I began using again a few months ago. It's getting out of control again, and it has caused me to miss work today. I'm not using right now, but I feel sick from last night's use. I need to stop, but I fear I can't stop without seeking professional help.
@3rd rock do not drink for 24 hours. Wake up sober the next day. If you can stay sober 1 day you can stay sober for 2 days. Try not to think too far ahead. ODAAT
Home detox is an option. Notify emergency dispatch the first sign of trouble.

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Hey all, itís been a while since I posted here.

I did really well in abstaining from alcohol. I was sober for a year and a half but along side my nurse I was seeing, we thought Iíd be okay to see if I can moderate.

That must have been a year or over now but I have creeped up in usage again.. Now I am slowly cutting back and adding sober days by myself and looking forward to being sober again. I think itís time to accept no amount of alcohol will do me any good.
Only people without alcohol issues can moderate. The "self-critic" makes you think alcohol use is good ALL the time. Fight the thoughts that make you think drinking is an option because people like you and I can not drink never again period. We lost the option to drink. Now choose the opportunity of sobriety.


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Old Sep 05, 2023 at 08:02 AM
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So I'm thinking of getting a tattoo. I'd like to have a butterfly and my sober date tattooed on my forearm. It'll be 5 years sober in Oct. and I'd like to get the tattoo kind of as a celebratory thing..


The only thing holding me back is being slightly worried about the permanence of it. I mean if I tattoo the date, what happens if I slip up and drink. I mean I feel like my date is as permanent as it can be, but given my history I'm still a bit hesitant.

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There have been relatively few posts here lately. I guess everyone has been cured of their alcoholism/addiction. Sorry; I'm just being a smart arse...
I know I wasn't posting because I was the exact opposite of cured :/

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