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#51
Apr 10, 2020, 10:13 PM
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Me too! Back at day one
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 Desoxyn
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 childofchaos831, Desoxyn
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#52
Apr 11, 2020, 03:07 PM
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| Bill3
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#53
Apr 15, 2020, 04:21 AM
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hi guys first time posting here,
I was addicted to benzos, and a long list of pain meds for years and have been clean and sober for almost 2.5 yrs. I had a lot of help along the way and had to relapse a few times to get it right and still today I grapple with urges. I just want to let ppl know if they need any help or support I am always around. You can find me in chat or pm me or post to my profile. Just to let you know what kinds of pills and other rec. drugs I have a background with they are Weed, coke, acid, , Xanax, valium, Klonopin, Fentenyl, vicoden and oxys. I've been in rehab and hospitalized for the Rx drugs and kicked the rec. drugs on my own. Cheers, Tams
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Tams https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6Whgn_iE5uc https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6FOUqQt3Kg0 YOU LAUGH BECAUSE I AM DIFFERENT, I LAUGH BECAUSE YOU ARE ALL THE SAME Don't only practice your Art, But force your way through into its secrets, For it and Knowledge can Raise men to the Divine. Beethoven |
| Bill3, childofchaos831, Desoxyn, greentires4me
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#54
Apr 18, 2020, 07:26 AM
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Yesterday I hit the 18 month mark. I'm really happy about it as that was my previous best. Now I'm looking forward to making it to 2 years. It feels achievable right now.
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 "I danced in the morning when the world was begun. I danced in the moon and the stars and the sun". From my favourite hymn. "If you see the wonder in a fairy tale, you can take the future even if you fail." Abba 
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| Bill3, Desoxyn, Guiness187055, Tamster
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#55
Apr 18, 2020, 07:48 AM
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WTG splitimage
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Love, Light and Happiness!!! |
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#56
Apr 18, 2020, 09:51 AM
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you will do it splitimage believe in yourself
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Tams https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6Whgn_iE5uc https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6FOUqQt3Kg0 YOU LAUGH BECAUSE I AM DIFFERENT, I LAUGH BECAUSE YOU ARE ALL THE SAME Don't only practice your Art, But force your way through into its secrets, For it and Knowledge can Raise men to the Divine. Beethoven |
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#57
Apr 19, 2020, 02:17 AM
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Hello! Nice to meet u all. Just signing in here, sober as usual...
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| childofchaos831, Desoxyn
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#58
Apr 19, 2020, 11:24 PM
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I feel like snorting 125mg of ketamine and doing something ****ed up
I should play GTA.. That's what I'm gonna do.. |
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#59
Apr 20, 2020, 12:14 AM
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I'm glad I kicked my habits when I did. For me, addiction and cravings is a non issue. My favorite drugs have either a supremely negative effect on my psyche or no effect at all due to conflicting drugs I'm prescribed now. So I'd be an idiot to want to use again. Cigarettes are the only thing that even come close to being an issue but my lack of money takes care of that. Plus my mom and I made a deal to quit smoking together, and if I start up again, she will too, so that's that.
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#60
Apr 20, 2020, 07:49 PM
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I'm sober but I'm really ****ed up more mentally than any drug can do
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| Bill3
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#61
Apr 22, 2020, 05:38 PM
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I had sleep paralysis 4 times last night because I mixed phenibut, alprazolam and zopiclone.
I'm trying to get a handle on this. I'm gonna wait 2-3 days without alprazolam and then take 0.25mg a day for 1-2 weeks and then stop. I'm lowering the phenibut by 50-100mg a day. Can't drink alcohol cuz it makes my heart beat fast. If no more zopiclone is prescribed I'll be up for days. But I'm handling this well. |
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#62
Apr 27, 2020, 06:53 AM
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I'm happy. I just learned yesterday that my mental health clubhouse is offering 3 online Double Recovery meetings a week. I was missing them, so I'm happy to have the on-line meetings to go to.
splitimage
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"I danced in the morning when the world was begun. I danced in the moon and the stars and the sun". From my favourite hymn. "If you see the wonder in a fairy tale, you can take the future even if you fail." Abba
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#63
Apr 27, 2020, 09:44 AM
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I am doing well today. I am working on my bad habits. I am trying to make positive change.
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#64
May 02, 2020, 08:40 PM
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On 0.25mg of alprazolam every evening. Down to 500mg of phenibut. Tomorrow I'll take 400mg.
That's it? Yeah that's it... I've been really really persistent for 6 months and it's gotten better. |
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#65
May 03, 2020, 08:07 PM
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Not doing well. Can't taper the alprazolam. Need 0.5mg a day.
I'm gonna ask the doctor for a longer acting benzo like diazepam to taper by 2mg diazepam every two weeks. I told my mom. She's not happy. I took an extra dose of phenibut today. I couldn't sleep last night tossing and turning for 6 hours worried about my heart every time i was drifting into sleep. Horrible horrible. |
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May 03, 2020, 09:29 PM
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Alprazolam is notoriously hard to taper. I tapered alprazolam with clonazepam -- maybe that would help you? I remember how difficult it was to just taper alprazolam alone. I would not want to do that again. That stuff is tough to taper off of. |
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#67
May 06, 2020, 05:40 PM
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I'm gonna try cutting the benzo in half again
When I decide to quit something, I quit when I'm ready. And when I'm ready, nothing stops me. Until then I'll book an appointment with my doctor for a longer acting benzo. |
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#68
May 06, 2020, 11:43 PM
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I'm really trying not to use tonight
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#69
May 07, 2020, 12:13 AM
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May 07, 2020, 08:41 AM
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Went to my first on-line Double Recovery meeting yesterday and it was pretty good. It was pretty heavily slanted towards AA, which sometimes happens, It all depends on who shows up. But I found it a bit frustrating.
splitimage
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"I danced in the morning when the world was begun. I danced in the moon and the stars and the sun". From my favourite hymn. "If you see the wonder in a fairy tale, you can take the future even if you fail." Abba
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| Bill3, childofchaos831, greentires4me
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#71
May 08, 2020, 01:26 AM
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Still thinking about stuff. I mean, I cannot quit anything. Haven't been able to quit alcohol recently, which is bad, because, well, my therapist often says "eh, you don't have a drinking problem, etc." And cannot quit other problematic behaviors like sex things I mentioned in another thread on this forum. I want to blame it all on my therapist but I cannot, since I know I have some agency in the matter. I just think she could be of more help. I am looking for a new therapist.
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#72
May 08, 2020, 03:22 AM
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Good on you for standing up at least looking for another therapist it’s the step in the right direction.
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Love, Light and Happiness!!! |
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#73
May 14, 2020, 08:52 AM
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Good morning everyone,
I've decided to apply to become a certified moderator with Women for Sobriety, so that I could run in-person meetings. I'm going to put my application in today. Really excited to be starting the process. splitimage
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"I danced in the morning when the world was begun. I danced in the moon and the stars and the sun". From my favourite hymn. "If you see the wonder in a fairy tale, you can take the future even if you fail." Abba
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#74
May 15, 2020, 04:53 PM
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I've been taking 0.5mg of alprazolam every evening since my last post.
Today I was prescribed 14x 5mg diazepams to take once a night for 2 weeks and then I stop. I think it will work.. I just need to sleep. I'm taking the pharmacists advice though to take every night for a few nights and then only take as needed for if I can't sleep or have an impending sense of doom. I had the impending sense of doom a few days ago because my meds were locked in the car and my sister was away with the keys - My mom gave me a lorazepam. So far I'm on 650mg of phenibut. I plan to stop taking it because it makes me feel stupid at antidepressive doses - Even though it's the only thing that allows me to cope with my moms histrionic personality disorder. Other than that I'm good. I drank one glass of wine last week and it made me suicidal - That's the last time I'm drinking alcohol. Psychedelics made me intolerant to alcohol. |
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May 16, 2020, 05:58 PM
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It's easy for me to go back into drugs at this time. Which drugs I don't know.
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