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Default Apr 28, 2021 at 10:50 PM
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It has nothing to do with moral values. For me, it was about what the molecules let me do to my own life. Take care of yourself.
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Default Apr 29, 2021 at 05:57 PM
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119 days….It’s getting easier to keep going because the further I go, the better it gets 😕
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Default Apr 30, 2021 at 08:14 AM
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Way to go Intrvtd1. Keep up the great work. I too find it gets better and easier with time.
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Default May 01, 2021 at 03:53 PM
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I'm gonna quit nicotine gum today or tomorrow
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Default May 04, 2021 at 12:11 PM
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Having a rough time. I went to see my pdoc last week & he asked if I'd been drinking. I have no idea why, & it really bothers me.
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Default May 04, 2021 at 03:46 PM
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buddah1too, If it were me I wouldn't take it too personally.


My psychiatrist periodically asks me if I'm still sober. After years of my relapsing he doesn't take anything for granted. Sometimes he asks me within the context of me being depressed, but sometimes it's just out of the blue. I don't have a problem with it, because it legitimately affects my care.

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Default May 06, 2021 at 07:11 PM
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It's been 5 days since I last used nicotine gum. Almost 2 years since my last cigarette.
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Congrats! That should save you a lot of money! Treat yourself somehow.
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Yesterday I bought a pint of rum and chased it with Coke walking home then smoked weed. I woke up this morning and took my stimulant, two double shots of rum, then more stimulant and another double shot. I felt good for an hour and then crashed and then it felt like my brain chemicals were drained so I took xanax, extra olanzepine and phenibut.

Tomorrow I'm going to turn this around completely and stop using because it doesn't help me.

I'll be going hiking every second day or so so I'll get in shape and be distracted.
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Default May 14, 2021 at 11:43 PM
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Sounds like one of my binges from the past. I couldn't drink and drug "just a little." I jumped in with both feet.
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Sounds like one of my binges from the past. I couldn't drink and drug "just a little." I jumped in with both feet.
Today was a good day. No drug use.

I'm trying to organize my meds and such. I often throw away drugs as a form of substance minimalism.

I feel much better today mood and mental health wise. Went for a walk, chilled - Decided what I want to do etc... Getting back on track.

I don't think I'd just let myself ever spiral into constant drug use unless I didn't have a family/parents were dead and I had nothing to live for where a comfortable life was taken away or something like that.
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Unhappy May 21, 2021 at 04:36 PM
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Yeah I’m slowly feeling better too…141 days now…almost half a year and still determined to keep this going in spite of the paws that mildly diminishing as they are, still hit…

The cravings are just now coming around but at a very low level…Triggered by the nice sunny summer-like weather we’ve had the past few weeks, Im still not gonna drink 🙁 I just don’t wanna go back to that nightmare of withdrawals I went through the past four and a half months 🙁

Hang in there everyone 👍🏾🙏🏾
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Default May 22, 2021 at 06:35 AM
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Way to go, you're doing the work. Yeah PAWS sucks big time, but as you're experiencing the cravings do get less intense and less frequent the longer you're sober, or at least that's what I found.


Now I only get a craving if I'm going out to a bar for wings, because in my mind beer and wings go together, but I'm not going to blow my sobriety for that.

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Way to go, you're doing the work. Yeah PAWS sucks big time, but as you're experiencing the cravings do get less intense and less frequent the longer you're sober, or at least that's what I found.


Now I only get a craving if I'm going out to a bar for wings, because in my mind beer and wings go together, but I'm not going to blow my sobriety for that.
Haha…Yeah beer and wings really do go together 🤣 I used to frequent Hooters on occasion 🙂 Now I just buy fried wings from our local grocery store that cooks em fresh for sale 😊 Yum! 😋
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Hey all! Another check-in day…its hot n sunny out 🥵 But I’m feelin ok so far…I tend to feel good in the morning, but deteriorate towards the late afternoon and early evening 🙁 But at 144 days in, things are getting better as the days go by 🙂

Take care everyone…let us know how you’re doing 😇
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Intro, You are doing a great job keep up the great work! Sobriety is so much better than being drunk all of the time

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Default May 25, 2021 at 09:16 AM
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I've kind of taken a new turn. After many years of going to regular AA meetings, I recently discovered Secular AA meetings on Zoom. No offense, but the concept of God has always been hard for me to swallow. Secular AA keeps the spirit of 12 Step work without all the God business. It's been refreshing.
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Day 147 😑
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Glad you found the secular meetings. We have a couple of secular AA meetings up here. I've never been to one, as they're in bad locations for me, but I support them.


I go to Double Recovery meetings which are based on AA - I just ignore the God stuff.

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