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Trig Jul 17, 2023 at 10:29 PM
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when i'm alone, it's at its worst. i feel this overwhelming urge to escape. i'm a poly-addict and fell off the face of these forums for some time. isolation breeds self-destruction.

even today, i found myself using again. just desperate to escape it all. the memories, the mood swings, the hallucinations and loneliness.

i'm captured by these things. locked up, looking for a key. the cage in my heart expanded and took over me.

i'm alone rn and feeling that desperation. i want to forget i'm in the cage, but that will only prolong my stay.

for anyone who reads this, thank you for taking the time to do so.

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Default Jul 18, 2023 at 01:40 AM
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I dont have words right now. Youve been missed.

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Default Jul 19, 2023 at 11:51 AM
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I feel for you. It's rough. I'm a poly-addict too and am struggling right alongside with you right now. We'll get through this together

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when i'm alone, it's at its worst. i feel this overwhelming urge to escape. i'm a poly-addict and fell off the face of these forums for some time. isolation breeds self-destruction.

even today, i found myself using again. just desperate to escape it all. the memories, the mood swings, the hallucinations and loneliness.

i'm captured by these things. locked up, looking for a key. the cage in my heart expanded and took over me.

i'm alone rn and feeling that desperation. i want to forget i'm in the cage, but that will only prolong my stay.

for anyone who reads this, thank you for taking the time to do so.
Your writing is beautiful. Perfectly encapsulates the need I have to escape. I chronically smoked weed for 5 years and stopped 8 months ago but now I sometimes drink a little to numb the pain. Its really hard.. Im sorry you have to go through that. Someday well be better. Well be flying like birds above the sea.
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Default Jul 11, 2024 at 11:12 AM
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Maybe "flying" isn't exactly what we should be going for haha. Maybe more like a moose drinking some nice and clean water from a pristine lake in the mountains

How you doing these days @MtnTime2896?

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