[MtnTime2896]

when i'm alone, it's at its worst. i feel this overwhelming urge to escape. i'm a poly-addict and fell off the face of these forums for some time. isolation breeds self-destruction.

even today, i found myself using again. just desperate to escape it all. the memories, the mood swings, the hallucinations and loneliness.

i'm captured by these things. locked up, looking for a key. the cage in my heart expanded and took over me.

i'm alone rn and feeling that desperation. i want to forget i'm in the cage, but that will only prolong my stay.

for anyone who reads this, thank you for taking the time to do so.

[Fuzzybear]

I don’t have words right now. You’ve been missed.

[MuddyBoots]

I feel for you. It's rough. I'm a poly-addict too and am struggling right alongside with you right now. We'll get through this together

[Superpower]

Originally Posted by MtnTime2896

when i'm alone, it's at its worst. i feel this overwhelming urge to escape. i'm a poly-addict and fell off the face of these forums for some time. isolation breeds self-destruction.

even today, i found myself using again. just desperate to escape it all. the memories, the mood swings, the hallucinations and loneliness.

i'm captured by these things. locked up, looking for a key. the cage in my heart expanded and took over me.

i'm alone rn and feeling that desperation. i want to forget i'm in the cage, but that will only prolong my stay.

for anyone who reads this, thank you for taking the time to do so.

Your writing is beautiful. Perfectly encapsulates the need I have to escape. I chronically smoked weed for 5 years and stopped 8 months ago but now I sometimes drink a little to numb the pain. It’s really hard.. I’m sorry you have to go through that. Someday we’ll be better. We’ll be flying like birds above the sea.

[MuddyBoots]

Maybe "flying" isn't exactly what we should be going for haha. Maybe more like a moose drinking some nice and clean water from a pristine lake in the mountains

How you doing these days @MtnTime2896?