Welcome to our Substance/Alcohol Abuse Support Group

Hi everyone this is my first entry and first reply. I am sober 27 years, I am a professional therapist in addiction, and run the NFL's drug program for the 9 teams in the Northeast. I am joining this group because I wanted to finally use this technology to remind me that I do not have all the answers and as I remind myself before every therapy session; "the one on the other side of the desk is the patient." I am a fellow traveler. I wanted to reply to Missy and the head games that occur with prescription opiates. This was my drug of choice and I realized that I wound up believing that being "normal" was having no pain." Obviously this was before sobriety, but it made my entrance into recovery very difficult. I really believed that I had pain, but I was taking pills for any slight discomfort and desensitizing myself to the daily normal dings and dents and I had lost judgment of real pain completely. Pain is BS, we take pain pills in increasing and addictive amounts because we like the feeling. The high. One thing that these pills gave me was energy, a relaxed but vibrant energy to get things done. So on top of creating no appropriate tolerance for pains and normal "ouches" I now had come to believe that the only or best way to get anything done was to have these opiate pills in my system. When my moment of clarity came, I was stunned to see how many pills I was taking daily. Of course I conveniently forgot I had 5 doctors and 6 pharmacies. Also, my pills were Percocet and they have acetaminophen- a lot, and my liver enzymes were sky rocketing. Hope this helps, keep taking charge, andy

i'm new n willing to know more about being sober,i've been sober for a month now it feels good but i know i have a long way to go...

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That is wonderful i have been clean for a month n i feel great better then i have in years...


hang in there do it one day at a time........

I'm having a great day today havent thought of getting high or drinking today its getting better with time

I like to say to everyone who hasnt used today congrats n keep up the good work

is there anyone here that can talk to me please. i am not good with computers so i dont know if anyone is there

I was wondering if someone could please help me. I am dealing with an abusive BF who I believe is abusing again, as his behavior is odd. I do not understand it, but it is hurting me too much and I have to get away from him as it is making me very depressed and anxious. I know he is an addict and an alcoholic, but I cannot help him, as I have tried. I just need to know if behaviors such as disappearing for hours and then not showing up, anger, lack of caring about others feelings, irresponsiblility, asking for money a lot, lying, etc. Does this mean drug use again? He always sounds very drugged, then he stays up always late and then sleeps in the day. He was taking antidepressants, but stopped. He a lso has a habit of taking pain meds with alcohol and going to the hospital to get them. The last time he went there, he told me they would not help him. I told him because they know he is addicted and he got very mad. He keeps saying he can control his drug use, and he is not like other addicts. This is very odd as he is 58 years old. He tries to keep me up and I just cannot deal with this behavior. I just had the worst, most hurtful run in and now my depression is back. He has a long history of cocaine and alcohol abuse, jail etc. He has been to detox, but always refuses the jail programs, gets angry when I bring up a problem. I know I am supposed to help him, but it makes me sick and very anxious, as he is abusive. He borrowed some money from me recently and I asked it for it back and he was out somewhere and would not specify and said he would bring it to me when he could. Earlier he had told me he would be at my house at 4 p.m. He then yells at me for being angry. Is it me or this crazy behavior? I am concerned. I suffer from depression and have to stay away from this as he triggers me. I realize he has a disease, but he will not listen to anyone. Thanks for any advice.

I've been smoking pot everyday for two years and am trying to quit for good. I am on day 2 and am having a difficult time. I can't sleep, I'm very anxious, I am cold then hot, I'm having terrible stomach aches. Is there anything I can take to help me relax and sleep?

Hello everyone. I am a 35 year old female. I have two sons, one is 16 and other is 7. I am a drug addict that is trying to make my life better so I can be a better person and a better mother. I also suffer from some mental illness issues. I have been diagnosed with clinical depression, anxiety attacks, and I am a cutter. I am hoping to get some support as well as maybe help someone with my story. Thank you doc for setting this up.

Hi Cher, been scoping out this website for almost a year; finally joined; just figuring out how to get around & find help & inspiration. Wanted u to know you are NOT alone. I have a 9 yr old who I would die for and am finally seeking treatment for drug addiction. Gigantic mood swings off the charts are distancing us terribly. I sooo do want to make my life better for both of us.
Incidentally, diagnosed with Depression, GAD too years ago b4 ever even faced possiblity opiates could be part of the problem. Clean now for only 10 days... hope u are well !! Thanx for sharing! Take care.

I hate drinking and what it is doing to my life....but I keep doing it. Isn't that crazy?

hi im very new at this. i need some advice. i have been with my husband for 2 years now. he has a drug problem. he injects cocain. we have steadily been trying to get him off but with no sucesss. i was wondering is there any hope or am i wasting my life. i love him very much and he is a wonderful man. he just has a problem that he cant shake.

I understand, I will listen if you want to talk.

Wow i started drinking alcohol at da age of 6 ill be 17 dis year in september and i still drink alcohol i cant seem to stop im addicted to it and not really getting any help to stop but i want to so bad but cant can anyone help me out wid dat

I have no idea how to work this site. What happen to the good old chatroom thing

is this sight just for drinking cause i have a addiction to oxycoton it started back in october my leggs swelled up from lack of potassum poor diet so they gave me oxys for the pain along with potassum well i couldent take the potassom pills they were to hard on my stomach but of course not the oxys they went down & stayed down it was all good in the beginning felt good took pain away then i was taking them & they didnt take the pain away anymore but i still took them today im up to taking 5 a day i wanna quit but i keep saying tomarrow i have someone giveing them to me free how can i say no me & him r the onely ones that know my huband dont know he would flip if he did i need to quit im not shure how to do that my biggest fear is the withdraw i dont know what to expect not a clue other than pure hell but for how long i have bipolor so i think with that its gonna be twice as bad i really need advice how do i go about stopping this dirty habbit without anyone finding out i was gonna say im gonna slow down on my zanex & make it like im going thre withdraws from that it weird the meds i take r the ones people want but the one im on im not saposta have i dont no i neeed advice please ! anything will help please dont be to hard im afraid ill get scared & make it worse ! thanks for your time ! hope to hear from ya!moonbeam2!

I am lost inside and even though on the surface everyone thinks I have it together, i dont, I have let 20 plus years of "having fun" turn into a horrible addiction to powder cocaine which has evolved into a massive crack habit and I dont what to do or who to talk to,,

I'm new and diagnosed with Bipolar II and have meth addiction for about 3 years. I have stopped before and took my meds only but in the end I stopped my meth. Meth makes me get out of the depression episode I seem to stay in and the medication actually make me feel more dull. Does anyone have advice or the belief that People with mental illness only use drug to self medicate or was I a drug addict first? I know life is a little better clean but i feel depressed on the medication and off when not getting high.

i joined this group. i have been sober for 22 yrs. i hope i can provide guidance, support and most importantly HOPE for members of this forum. we all follow "one day at a time". the person who got up first this morning has the most time sober...old AA proverb.

I've am a recovering addict (NA) for 5 years now and I am now a 4.0 student studying psychology with ultimate goal of opening a rehabilitation facility in the future. I have found through a 3 year journey of hospital stays and 4 hour long therapy sessions, my academic endeavors, and I hope my intellect that I have a very strong grasp on the utilities needed to offer a proper insight and an encouraging fact to those who struggle with addiction also.

Thanks for this forum...

Have a great 24...If you need to talk contact me..

thanks for this forum. new to alcohol dependency issue. no history of alcohol abuse in my family. (no family history) self-mediating has become a problem. hoping to find support here.

Anyone on here dealing with methamphetamines along with depression and anxiety?

Haven't been on here in forever..recently celebrated my 6 year clean date!!! 6years off heroin and not a single relapse!!! Went to school and I'm now a certified pharmacy technician..Life after addiciton is a daily struggle but well worth it. Anybody who wants to know my whole story can msg me&I'll be glad to talk with ya!

I have both anxiety and severe depression for months now I do drugs and I'm really trying to stop

Started. Suboxone. Today...wow..very impressed

Hi everyone. I'm here because people I care about in my life have dealt with alcoholism, but also because I can sometimes become dependent on alcohol too. I primarily struggle with BPD but occasionally I will abuse alcohol to deal with my BPD. My boyfriend is a full blown alcoholic and so was my father.

Substance abuse is something I'm very familiar with in life and I'm grappling with it right now. As my depression worsens with time it's becoming more and more tempting to drink away many of my problems. I am sad to admit that I do this sometimes without understanding why, but I am going to therapy to try to stop escaping my problems through vices...Before it was an eating disorder; now it's this.

I hope we can all find support with one another here when we need each other. Luckily alcohol isn't a daily issue for me so much as a circumstantial/secondary one, but I want to help others here with the same issues as well.