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Im so sick of being bipolar makes me wont to use again anything is better then being this way . Just had to say it I gone down that road before and I know its not the answer but when you just want to get away from your self you just cant stand being it still pops up in my head .You know meds. only work so well and come on everyone does it .But for me im not worry about using again thats not what stops me from picking up its what im left with when im done a out of his mind mental headcase with months maybe years of work to get my bipolar back to where it is know . To be that mentally sick again I just had to remind myself of that right now .Every once and awhile i need to relive it to get those thoughts of using out of my head and it works thanks for listening .

Wow only 2 spelling mistakes things must be getting better.