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Apr 16, 2009, 05:55 PM
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OK l admit it l so very very much want to go out and egt very drunk just so that l can get some peace inside me from the constant thoughts and memories. Each and every time l take a step then bam a smack in the face to make sure that l come back to that point of feeling crap.
All l want is some order some peace and quiet just why flood with all these memories why why l dont want to know no more ...................all l want is too forget just for now................but know that if l drink now l will fall know that l wont want to stop because then the whole lot will flood my gates again. Who am l to ask for peace , do l deserve it maybe not but l sure do need it many many young days were spent sitting in a corner afarid to say things are hurting for fear of the repriasal and now people say why dont you ask for help people like you and want to help you teh answer to the question is beacuse l am scared to be seen as weak again, scared to be so exposed that one wrong word could increase this pain and hurt. drink l know is evil for me at least, drink l know once l start l cant stop....................but when l drink...............I DONT FEEL the hurt thew memories are not there and the pain is less. tonight l so want and need the pain to be less and l aqm hoping by posting some of the hurt here it will take away the need to pick up that drink and try to wash it all away again...............does it ever go l mean completely go   
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Apr 17, 2009, 03:30 AM
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i can so underatand what you are saying,
thankyou for this, and your honestly angel 
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Apr 17, 2009, 07:15 AM
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I know that feeling also, with time and help you will realize, like I have there is other ways to deal with the pain caused by flashbacks and memories. If you ever need to talk you can PM me anytime. Take care
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Apr 17, 2009, 08:30 AM
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(((((((((sas))))))))))
You did well to post your feelings. It is very hard. The pain is there and you are feeling so very vulnerable. Drinking doesn't work as you have stated. Being in pain is wretched. I hear you on the feeling weak and never being allowed to talk or express yourself never mind asking for help. It is hard to convince yourself that it is safe. But it is. It IS safe to talk. It IS safe to ask for help It IS safe to write and express feelings I am proud of you for posting. Try and think of your safe place. Make yourself go there physically or in your mind. Wrap a blanket around yourself and imagine being held. I am sitting with you. |
| knothead, silentandscared
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Apr 17, 2009, 06:19 PM
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 Sharing your feelings and asking for help when you need it does not make you weak -- it makes you stronger!!
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 " I don't wanna be the girl that has to fill the silence. The quiet scares me 'cause it screams the truth. Please don't tell me that we had that conversation, 'Cause I won't remember, save your breath 'cause what's the use? Aahh, the night is calling, and it whispers to me softly, "Come and play". Aahh, I am falling, and if I let myself go I'm the only one to blame. I'm safe, up high, nothing can touch me, but why do I feel this party's over? No pain, inside, you're like perfection, but how do I feel this good sober?" (From the song "Sober", by Pink)
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