[lostconfusedhopeles]

(might be triggering)
I dont know what to do anymore. My dad caught on that i try to not eat and the other day caught me purging in the bathroom. Now he is worried but all he does then is just says dont do that its bad and threatens to take me in to the hospital. i have gone before all they did was make it a whole bunch worse. Also i have been wanting to make myself bleed to punish my self for not eating or purging but whenever i do it just makes my anxiety when i wake up a whole bunch worse if my dad sees he starts
yelling and freaking out and then i do it again and on top of it all something happened in school which i might of caused but im pretty sure the outcome i didnt cause and that happen a few months ago and now im questioning whether the thing i think happened happened ugh i dont know what to do anymore!