[boydisappearing]

I showed up to an orientation for the outpatient eating disorders treatment centre in my city. It's the only treatment offered here - 3 hours a week, once a week, for 25 weeks. I went in thinking I probably would get put on the waiting list because I wasn't sick enough.

I was extremely surprised when they asked to talk to me separately and told me that they considered me a medical risk because of the weight I'd lost, how fast I'd done it, and how little I was eating. They are willing to take me into the outpatient group, but only if I also complete an assessment and intake for a more intensive program in another city, that had medical support and would take me if my weight dropped lower.

So now I'm waiting to hear when the second assessment is, and I'm terrified.

I didn't think I was that bad. I mean, I knew my weight was low, but no one was freaking out, least of all me. I guess denial can sneak up on you.

I don't know what to do. If I get sent to the other program I won't be able to afford commuting there every day AND all my bills/rent/etc. But I don't know if I can stop the weight loss. I'm really scared.

Is there family that can help you out while you seek help? IN all honestly what choice do you have? If you keep doing this to yourself you may find yourself in a trouble. I don't want to see that happen and I'm sure you don't want to end up in a tight spot either. You can take the step to combat it now. Seriously, see if you have some friends or family that may be able to help you with gas money and stuff.

[pinkflower17]

Is it a Partial hospitalization program? A lot of times those provide really inexpensive overnight housing and will sometimes even waive that fee for economic hardship. Maybe that would help with the commuting costs at least. Also, have you looked into residential? If you're sick enough for residential treatment and it's not offered in your home town, your insurance company has to pay for treatment in another location that can meet your needs. Maybe that's what you need, and that would probably help with some of the bills and commuting costs. Hope some of that helps.

[boydisappearing]

It's a day hospital program. They don't have an option for overnight stay unless it's inpatient, and I doubt I'd get full inpatient, my BMI isn't low enough for that. The outpatient program in my city wants to send me to the day program in a city an hour away.

I'm on disability, and I THINK that disability will cover my transportation costs. That's what I'm hoping. Then again, I'll be having all my meals at the day program except for weekends, so that would save on groceries.

I'm getting more ok with the idea of day hospitalization. I want to get better.