[Winnie973]

I am having a hard time finding motivation for recovery. My weight is stable, but i am still terrified of gaining weight. I even find myself wanting to be thinner again. I am over 18 but my mother keeps threatening to pull me out of university and get me commited to a treatment center if i dont "get my act together." But the more she tells me what to do, the more i dont want to do it. I just dont know what to do. Any advice?

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, Winnie973 It seems like your mother isn't being too supportive of you. I'm so sorry! Do you see a therapist? Maybe that could help! You could learn new ways to cope with your feelings! Dealing with Anorexia and Eating Disorders is certainly not easy, especially if you're not receiving any support IRL! I'd suggest to reach out to a professional as soon as you can! Hopefully you'll be able to get the help you need and deserve! You deserve to be happy and to feel good! You deserve to live an happy life just like everyone else does! Keep fighting! We'll be here for you if you need it! We all care about you here! We all love you here! We'll never abandon you! You know we won't judge you! I promise you that! Remember that we're here for you if you need it! Feel free to PM me anytime! Let me know if I can do something to help you! Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes! I'm sos orry you have to deal with all of this, Winnie973! You're a strong, wonderful person! You're awesome! You're strong! You're a warrior! I believe in you! We all believe in you! We're all rooting for you! We're all cheering you on! Please don't give up hope! Try to hang on as much as you can! Keep fighting! Believe in yourself! I hope things will get better soon for you and that you'll be able to get the help you need and deserve. I also hope that you'll be able to get away from toxic people in your life!

[zapatoes]

Hope you can recover Winnie973 and anorexia is psychological as well as physical so counseling is very important to recovery. Good luck and get better soon.

[NightRain2019]

Anorexia can be hard that way. It can make you not want to give it up. I know what that fear feels like. But it is possible to recover. I’ve been stable on that issue for many years. Recovery is worth it. Hang in there.

[Queen19792019]

I can relate. We can die from this though. We can all do it.... get through this

[Winnie973]

Originally Posted by MickeyCheeky

I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, Winnie973 It seems like your mother isn't being too supportive of you. I'm so sorry! Do you see a therapist? Maybe that could help! You could learn new ways to cope with your feelings! Dealing with Anorexia and Eating Disorders is certainly not easy, especially if you're not receiving any support IRL! I'd suggest to reach out to a professional as soon as you can! Hopefully you'll be able to get the help you need and deserve! You deserve to be happy and to feel good! You deserve to live an happy life just like everyone else does! Keep fighting! We'll be here for you if you need it! We all care about you here! We all love you here! We'll never abandon you! You know we won't judge you! I promise you that! Remember that we're here for you if you need it! Feel free to PM me anytime! Let me know if I can do something to help you! Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes! I'm sos orry you have to deal with all of this, Winnie973! You're a strong, wonderful person! You're awesome! You're strong! You're a warrior! I believe in you! We all believe in you! We're all rooting for you! We're all cheering you on! Please don't give up hope! Try to hang on as much as you can! Keep fighting! Believe in yourself! I hope things will get better soon for you and that you'll be able to get the help you need and deserve. I also hope that you'll be able to get away from toxic people in your life!

Thanks for your support! Yah, i am in out patient right now. I see a therapist weekly and a dietitian every other week. I am just in a "funk" as my dietition says. I am just going through the motions and kind of half assing it. I know that its not good, but I am so scared and do not have any motivation. When I first went started treatment a almost 2 years ago I wanted to get better so I could go to state in highschool swimming my seinor year. But halfway through the season I got a stress fracture on the head of my femur and had to stop swimming for the rest of the season and never did make it to state. So now I dont see any reason to continue challenging myself in recovery. But I can feel myself wanting to relapse and I feel like I need to loose weight again. But I know my mother will pull me out of college if I do. I have told my therapist about how I feel, kind of. But I am scared to admit the full extent of it in fear of being forced into a higher level of care.

[Starving2death]

You'll do recovery when you can. You really can't force it ever. It just won't work. I've seen dozens of girls/women/men try to force themselves through recovery physically but their minds didn't follow.
I've regained my body weight two or three times over the past 35 years or so. I survived it but I don't think it's good for me to go up and then drop weight again.