[Mr.SB2009]

What up everyone. I have this somewhat of a growing concern, and it does bother me because of my inability of maintaining relationships and enjoying the simple things in life. I was wondering if I could possibly have APD, I don't think a doctor could ever recognize that in me because I often appear to be so pleasant and kind to people but the truth is... I just don't really care about anyone! I cannot follow through with long term goals at all all my goals are short term... I need immediate satisfaction, boredom is intolerable and a lot of times when I get bored I get angry, especially when I don't have anyone to go out with since that people seem to generally keep their distance from me. When I drink I cannot stop until I am totally ****ed up and when I smoke I cannot stop until my throat is burning. I seem to have this obsession with thrills and the only kind of movies I can stand have to have full throttle violence, that goes for books too, I just finished reading the night stalker and found it to make me almost feel manic and excited at times. I never usually get into fights and avoid confrontation but I can get very irritable especially when somebody is not being nice to me, or criticizes me, I get this shot of anger or anxiety like its unjust to do such a thing. All I can ever think about is sex, and when meeting a girl I'm really not concerned about getting to know her, and get irritated by the drawn out process of getting into her pants.

looking at my father, he was an alcoholic had a tendency to get into fights and be very recklace... he almost killed himself after getting into a fight at a bar and speeding away drunk on his motorcycle while doing wheelies and crashed into a truck. that was when my mother left him.
Just makes me wonder about this anti social diagnosis, I'm recklace but I tend to keep attention away from myself, I'm more reserved and introverted at times but can also be really aggressive and exploitative... Im also cruel to animals at times as well.

Does this sound like the signs of an anti social peronality at all? I really think that I can't feel as much as the average person...

[MN0808]

In all honesty, it's possible. But the only one that can make that determination is a trained professional.

If I were you, I would make an appointment and keep it.

Tell them your concerns and be honest. They should be able to talk with you and come up with a way to assist you.