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Hello,
I was recently dx'd with antisocial personality disorder (and bipolar I)

Part of me thinks that I meet the criteria with carelessness and disregard.
I feel that I don't have much regard for my own safety, and no regard for others' feelings.
Although I do have friends that I relate to, most of them have similar qualities, take risks, are hot-headed, kind of inappropriate in social situations and have something going on in their head like me.
It's sort of like other people that defy social norms are the only people I really am able to have connections with.
The way I seem to be sort of conflicts with the ideas of other diagnoses I have, like anxiety, or bipolar, though. Social anxiety kind of makes me want to withdraw from social situations, but when I am confident I tend to take it a little far.
My self-image is hard to explain right now as I know I hate myself deeply most of the time but I also have been starting to feel very attractive, if I am in the state where I can have clean clothes (err... hard right now) and I fix my hair I feel kind of like a god. lol.

on the other hand although this stuf is true, i feel like i cant trust the way i think and self-reflect, that they may have dx'd ASPD simply because I have previously been to jail.

another random thing i would like to add, that you guys can drop thoughts on is that i feel like i have "splitting" really bad, like alot of times i'm kind of all-or-nothing.
i know its associated with bpd but they are both cluster b personality disorders so they must have at least something in common.

anyways wuld like to hear some of your guys' thoughts.
It's clearly not life-or-death but it is just running through my mind, in a way having the new dx's of bp1 & aspd makes me justify the messed up stuff i have done more, but also think it might be good that i can acknowledge more that something is going on, that needs to be treated..