[SUNNY2009]

I go to a friends family get together and though I am tired I felt like I needed to make it there. I have backed out of many other outings for this friend and I didnt want this to be another.
I went and socialized..w/people who know me and who I should feel comfortable with. But even under these circumstances, I find myself somewhat uneasy. Tonight I payed a little more attention and I would catch myself sinking into the background. Behind the scenes (so to speak) (lost in the crowd). it wasnt the whole time,. and there were other moments of conversation and laughter and it was good... but I notice in spurts and during the times when I would withdraw I would feel the unease creeping in.
I didnt stay more than a couple hours (I think back to a time when I wished for the chance to have stayed longer).
I have anxiety now ....not sure if it is because of the socializing attempts made or what! so frustrating, because I had a decent day - no anxiety yesterday either.

[jerrymichele]

Have you thought about getting treatment for your anxiety?

[SUNNY2009]

Originally Posted by jerrymichele

Have you thought about getting treatment for your anxiety?

Hi Jerrimichele,
Well I am taking lorazapam as needed. Actually anxiety was once once in a awhile up until the last 1-2 mos. I had been taking prestiq to help with depression while I go thru therapy for CSA. But I am seemed to have progressed with more anxiety and so I have the lorazapam for that.
Recently my T thought I should meet w/a pdoc to re-eval meds. He seems to think the anxiety is not getting better and agrees is affecting me dialy and even at work (I have told him I am having trouble focusing).
So I met with a pdoc and he wanted me to take .25 zoloft along w/the prestiq....so I did and after about a week I felt more anxiety than ever...I was in a bad state and so I called T because I wasnt sure what to do. He called my pdoc and expressed concern, and then the NP said to stop the zoloft and just take prestiq x 1.5 and to take lorazapam 2 times a day rather than 1.
Tomorrw I meet w/pdoc agn...my t stressed the need for me to relay to pdoc that I anxiety ridden and to open up a little more about how I am feeling.
anyway...Fri I had no anxiety (it was great) and so I didnt take the loraz. and sat I felt great ...again no loraz.... but after socializing ....it wwent thru the roof.
I thought that I should only take the lorz when I feel the anxiety .... I will have to tt the pdoc tomr to see what he says.
As for the prestiq...I have only taken the 1 (original amt) per day cuz the insurance doesnt pay for any of it and I have samples I have been using for 5 mos and i am almost out.... i am sure the pdoc is gonna b aggravated with this issue but I got to do what I got to do... bac to taking the 2 loraz tomrw and hiopefully I can find a happy medium somehwere w.the meds...
very frustrating .... I am up and then I am down and then I am up ....all within a few hours....definite rollercoaster.
I never took meds before feb 09 ...so this is still new... I dont like having to rely on them... I feel like sometimes it works ok but most of the time I am a wreck - almost like my hormones or something is out of whack...my t sz that sometimes it takes time to find the right meds for each person....
problem is ...I have a job that requires me to be in full attention...cant afford to be off...so far I have been able to mask some of it but I dont know how long that will last...hoping that something gves soon....and that its not my mind! lol
Well so I blabbed a lot .... seems to be going this way with me a lot lately...I am just a little worried w/all this and really am not sure what the right choices are w.meds and what to do....only met the pdoc once and so I dont really know him like T ... my mind is obv racing right now...
Thanks for asking and I hope you have a good night