[rob2244]

I can't seem to think clearly anymore. Nothing seems to make any sense. I can't listen to someone talk to me without noticing that I really am not hearing what they say. It's almost like i'm blocking everything out. I don't get aggrivated, just aggitated with the littlest of things. Can anyone relate to this?Anyway, i'm just rambling........Rob

Hello, Rob. Yes, I have been there. With the help of a therapist, I learned to be calmer and more focused.

When is your appointment with the therapist?

[rob2244]

Actually, my Appt is March 26th for the eval. I'm not sure if or when I will be able to see a therapist from that point. I don't have insurance now as I let this go for so long that I let it cost me my job as well as my benefits. I'll have to try to go through social services now. How screwed up am I to let this get to this point. I think that I avoided dealng with the fact that I had problems and somewhat ran on autopilot for the last year until things got really bad. I don't understand why this is happening because I don't have any major issues going on in my life. I think that most of it had to do with my job. Near the end it was making me physically ill with all of the pressure and working from 13 to 15 hours a day. But that's life and I should have been able to deal with it. Now I just feel like i'm failing my family and have just traded one ball of anxiety for another. Hopefully after my eval they will recommend me to a therapist. I've been off work for a couple of weeks now and getting some sleep but I still feel exausted and wired at the same time. This is not a good feeling. I do feel a little better now that i've addressed the fact that I need help. At my worst point I didn't want to go on. Now my days are not quite so bad but I still feel isolated with my issues. However, i'm not giving up. I have already went for a couple of job interviews. This was not fun as I have not done an interview in almost 15 years. I did manage to get through them which felt like a major accomplishment to me. Anyway, I will have to wait a month for the eval and then hopefully get to see a therapist. As of right now my coping skills are limiting me to avoiding things all together or taking very small steps.Anyway, day by day until March 26th.....Rob

I understand completely what you are going through.I was fired from my job because I couldn't stay focused.I made many mistakes.
The mind racing usually happens to me when I am going to sleep.I take a pill to help me sleep.It generally works.
I also get in a state of mind where I ignore people on purpose.If I had earplugs it would be better.Instead I tell them I am half deaf.I really am half death.
Well, I hope you can get to a therapist soon.Good luck

Sardean

Originally Posted by rob2244

I can't seem to think clearly anymore. Nothing seems to make any sense. I can't listen to someone talk to me without noticing that I really am not hearing what they say. It's almost like i'm blocking everything out. I don't get aggrivated, just aggitated with the littlest of things. Can anyone relate to this?Anyway, i'm just rambling........Rob

Keep the faith.

[Di Di]

Originally Posted by rob2244

I can't seem to think clearly anymore. Nothing seems to make any sense. I can't listen to someone talk to me without noticing that I really am not hearing what they say. It's almost like i'm blocking everything out. I don't get aggrivated, just aggitated with the littlest of things. Can anyone relate to this?Anyway, i'm just rambling........Rob

Yeah i can relate to that. Sometimes they're talking and i'm looking at them hearing them but not understanding what they're saying. It's like they're speaking another language. Othertimes i just don't want anyone talking to me. I just want to play with my scissors.