[MamaDuck4]

I can't leave my house. Isolate and FORCE myself to go to Dr appts. This sucks!!!

If I Google a disease I have it. Dumb but true. So over this

[BrokenNBeautiful]

I used to hate forcing myself to go to dr's.

Billi

[MamaDuck4]

I wish I'd find a stay at home job. I'd log major hours lol

[Switch]

I know exactly what you're going through MamaDuck, and it's scary. There were times I couldn't even get myself out for doctor appointments or T. But KEEP PUSHING YOURSELF and it'll (very slowly) get easier. Tell every proffectional who can help (your GP, Pdoc, T, ext) and ask for help and say that you don't want to live like this.... unless you do, but I really don't think you do or you wouldn't be posting this.

Focus your energy on getting help and getting through this. And know that you're not the only one. You're not alone. There are others that know exactly what you're going through.

Stay strong.

[lancetrot]

Originally Posted by MamaDuck4

I wish I'd find a stay at home job. I'd log major hours lol

Wishing you goodluck to find a home job.

[pbutton]

I'm actually glad to hear you say that you're over it. When I got to that stage, that's when I started fighting back. I was terrified to leave home or be alone. Neither one of those things bother me at all now. Keep fighting!!

[Hope1212]

I get like that sometimes too. Try picking out places where you can go that make you feel safe. Even if you just drive around, but don't get out of the car. Eventually, you can venture out further. Try to go outside to pick up your mail. Or perhaps go to a library. You don't have to talk to anyone, just sit and read for a while. The more you try to go out the better your anxiety should feel. Best of luck to you.

[LiveThroughThis]

God have I been there. I got to that literal point of being afraid to walk out my front door. It took being on subpar meds that dialed down the anxiety to almost-tolerable levels and getting to a Dr. who knew what the hell he was doing to get on some proper meds which lowered my anxiety quick....it needed to be done that way then because it was so acute I was shaking, lost weight, terrified from the moment I woke up until I went to bed....terrified of EVERYthing. It's hard for someone who hasn't been there to know what that's like. It's excruciating.

To this day (3 years later), I rarely drive, I do go out with friends but have to limit those interactions (else I'll get overstimulated and wears me out physically). I can walk out of my (new, with/bf) house with no thought----there was a time I was incapable of doing that. I have no problem being at the doctor's; I WANT them to see what's going on and fix it the best they can. It's the getting there (I live 30 min from mine) that's sometimes difficult. But at least I can actually go to a restaurant now without terror, even if it's ridiculously loud. I don't wake up on pins and needles all day. A lot has changed. A lot needs changing. But reading your post reminds me of where I've been and how terrifying it is...and how I have indeed made more progress than I've realized. Thank you for sharing!

[eloquentdisaster]

I sometimes go weeks on end without leaving my apartment. What helps me is to do very little things. For example, I will go out on my balcony one day. To the coffee shop across the street the next. If you have the luxury of that kind of time, perhaps that would work for you. I hope this eases up for you.

[polar_bear1]

Originally Posted by LiveThroughThis

God have I been there. I got to that literal point of being afraid to walk out my front door. It took being on subpar meds that dialed down the anxiety to almost-tolerable levels and getting to a Dr. who knew what the hell he was doing to get on some proper meds which lowered my anxiety quick....it needed to be done that way then because it was so acute I was shaking, lost weight, terrified from the moment I woke up until I went to bed....terrified of EVERYthing. It's hard for someone who hasn't been there to know what that's like. It's excruciating.

To this day (3 years later), I rarely drive, I do go out with friends but have to limit those interactions (else I'll get overstimulated and wears me out physically). I can walk out of my (new, with/bf) house with no thought----there was a time I was incapable of doing that. I have no problem being at the doctor's; I WANT them to see what's going on and fix it the best they can. It's the getting there (I live 30 min from mine) that's sometimes difficult. But at least I can actually go to a restaurant now without terror, even if it's ridiculously loud. I don't wake up on pins and needles all day. A lot has changed. A lot needs changing. But reading your post reminds me of where I've been and how terrifying it is...and how I have indeed made more progress than I've realized. Thank you for sharing!

Good to hear your progress, may I ask what meds you´ve taken for your anxiety? Take care

[LiveThroughThis]

Originally Posted by polar_bear1

Good to hear your progress, may I ask what meds you´ve taken for your anxiety? Take care

Weird.... I thought I replied to this. Sorry!

Anyway, I take Tranzine (chlorazepate)--apparently it's an old drug cause I don't see it on many drug prescription lists (Target, etc.).

The funny thing is I took Xanax daily (dosages varied) for three years, and figured out the last year it was just not doing its job anymore (it's an excellent short-term med for anxiety--I still have a Rx for panic attacks), but longterm for me was regretful. Then I took Valium, which was a complete joke compared to Xanax---it did nothing. Quickly got off that, my P-doc scanned his brain (as he has countless times throughout my history with him), and suggested Tranzine. It's worked very well, without the hungover/doped feeling Xanax gives. Seems to have no side effects as well.