[Nikki57]

I was just wondering if anyone else ever feels this way?....
I feel not only very disconnected from everyone but also like I almost don't even know these people. My boyfriend, whom I've been with for almost two years, my best friends, whom I've known almost my whole life, my friends, even my family. Of course I reconigize them & know who they are, I just suddenly feel like I can't talk to them like I used to.
Also, everything feels "wrong". I don't know how else to describe it other than saying that. The house suddenly feels darker or foreign to me. My neighborhood no longer feels like my neighborhood. I don't even know how to explain this.
Does anyone at all get what I'm saying?

[PurpleFlyingMonkeys]

I'm sorry you feel this way but you're not alone Nikki. I don't currently feel this way but things like this happen in phases for me. It will last months and then one day things will go back to normal. I push everyone away during this phase. I don't even feel like myself. I'm not sure if it's an anxiety issue too much but boy can it cause anxiety. Do you ever look in the mirror and don't know who you're looking at? Like you know what you're supposed to look at and you know that's your face in the mirror but it doesn't feel like it is? It doesn't feel like you're connected to the person in the mirror or anyone else that you should know. To me, it makes my past seem like someone elses. So I guess the phase doesn't completely end. I always feel like my past was someone elses. Maybe that's my minds way of denial, not accepting that some things happened to me. But if it keeps the pain from the past away I'll take what I can get.

When it does come to family friends and such I do feel the way you mentioned above sometimes. Like I said they come in phases for me. That's why I don't have any friends now. It kinda stinks... But it goes away with time. I wont say it wont return. It's something that really needs to be helped by a t but I try to work things through on my own first, maybe that's why the phases keep coming back instead of staying gone.

Wish I had some advice. When you feel that way it kind of starts a downward spiral of thinking. When your connections don't seem real anymore it makes you question the reality of other things as well. That's when it gets into dangerous thinking and psychotic thinking. During one of these phases... The looking in the mirror phase when no connections seemed to be real, I started thinking the world wasn't real. That the world we lived in was all in my head, none of it was reality but I lived in my head and everyone who passed me, everyone who spoke to me... They were seperate people in my mind. My t wanted me admitted to a hospital because of those thoughts but the real problem behind them was an abusive person I was with and I left him shortly after discussing hospitalization with my t (about 4 days later) and those feelings went away when I left that situation. I guess stress and anxiety can cause it than... I don't know but I do know you're not alone. I wish I had advice for you but I can tell you you're not the only one who feels this way, it's actually somewhat common. Somewhat...

[Nikki57]

I have felt that way when looking into a mirror. I also push people away during this time. Mine seem to come in phases too. Sometimes I wonder if I am bipolar, but I don't know.
It makes me feel alot better to know that I am not alone in feeling this way. Not that I think anyone deserves to go through this, it just lets me know I'm not completely insane. I try to just grit my teeth & get through it. I can't thank you enough for telling me all this. It really does help me.