[Justin85]

MeHey everyone

I have a a strange situation and I need some help ok a few years ago I attended my brothers wedding as his best man, at the time I was experiencing certain mental disorders like anxiety and slight depression, and after the wedding me and my brother got in to a nasty shouting match so at the reception he kept picking with me and making nasty comments and I responded back with nasty comments of my own, he was drunk and nervous so he decided to pick on me. So later on that day we were outside and we got in to another argument were he would throw insults at me and I would throw insults at his wife and him to make him feel bad,now granted im not a mean guy and I have been always made fun of because my strange behaviors many years ago when I first became mentally ill.and never forgave those people but have been cordial to the people who did it. But since then I have improved and I am able to fiction better I have had good stretches and bad stretches.So lets fast forward to today I am completely miserable because I am taking me and my brothers rift and I am adding to the story in my head I am making it like horrible things have happened and like my mother was crying and I did strange things and my brother said some really devilish horrible things to me he new about all my secrets and we were spitting on each other and I shoved his friend I spit on his wife's sister I kicked my brother in the butt and so on and so on.But the thing my mother father and grand mother say it didn't happen but im sure things were said.The big fight that happened me and my mother were standing together but she completely wont own up to anything that happend.The reason why I think she wont say anything because my brother was drunk and nervous and she doesn't want us to fall out and never speak again or she does not want me to retaliate and I believe she told my father and grandmother to deny it. She says im in crisis and need help and told me to go see my doctor now im 99.8% sure we got in to a fight and people denying this make me feel real bad because I can't get over it and heal if people don help me address It and tell the truth.The other thing is If it didn't happen I need help quick I need new medicine ASAP and I need to be diagnosed with something and get it treated my psychciatrist says it is paranoia caused by sever anxiety and she took me off prozac and put me on 40mgs of paxil with the paxil I have had good moments and bad moments so I don't know if I should keep up with it or not its been three weeks since I have been taking it and she ups the dosage every 2 weeks.So right now I just want to feel better because these repetitive bothersome thoughts are stopping me from fuctioning day to day I have very important things I need to accomplish.but can't because my brothers wedding dominates my thought.What can I do to help myself is this a known condition how do cope please people help me im losing it.


Thanks For reading

[Miswimmy1]

I'm sorry... I am not sure what to say. Medication can take up to 3 months to be fully effective. I wouldn't give up on it so soon. There really is no "easy" fix. If you are concerned about it, talk to your doc... In the meantime, breathe. In out, in out.

[whatbeanbelieved]

((((((((((Justin)))))))))))

I agree with Miswimmy. Medication takes time - and while it is completely within your right to change your medication WITH your doctor's approval, it is important to give each medicine a shot.

However, if the paranoid thoughts have started AFTER the medication, you need to report this to your doc ASAP.

In the meanwhile, I'm really hoping you have a therapist you go to regularly. Anxiety can be really disturbing and debilitating and can alter how you remember things ... it's important to have a Therapist to guide you through this.

Hope you feel better.