[Alishia88]

It´s very true for me, but I don´t know if it´s the family-thing or just the holiday itself.

I´m new to this increased anxiety I´ve been experiencing for about 1 1/2 years which sort of started with an awfull birthday of mine, when my father had been dead for almost 2 years. The night before my birthday, after 12, my mother came home completely drunk and badly bruised, she said she was attacked but it turned out she only fell.

On the birthday my best friend didn´t feel like spending the day with me and none of my family or friends would talk to me about my mother or asked how I felt.

I had been anorexic after my father´s death, before and was now normal size but very depressed, so it wasn´t a good birthday to start with.

Even my sister wouldn´t talk to me and I felt very very alone.

This doesn´t have much to do with how I started out, but I´m just going to write this out.

After my father´s death, I felt like I have lost EVERYthing.

I lost my mother and my sister too, my family.
Due to anorexia I lost my danceing, I lost my friends and my "sanity".

I am in therapy and trying to at least get my mental health and my dancing back and I have made a few new friends.

Anyway, since this birthday last year, I´ve been getting anxious around holidays, my birthday etc and I wonder why? If it has to do with family or just the memories of how good it used to be and how "wrong" it is now.

for me... it's not i get anxious around holidays as such (well, guess i do a little bit) but mainly- i just hate them.

all the gatherings, the organisation, the fact that another year is over and has been wasted, the fact that everyone has somewhere to go and things to do but me, hate the dam holidays... i sometimes wish they wern't invented.

seriously

[Miss Laura]

I get anxious about the crowds and the fact that no matter where you go its choco-block!! Ironically I am going to our Capital on Friday to see their Christmas Market and its gonna be VERY stressful for me. But I make myself do this to try and ease the anxiety levels. I also hate the fact the bus's are always busy with women who have children (huge prams lol!) which makes getting on and off the bus hard.

I understand it's a hard time for a lot of people and I can only imagine how hard it is for people. I hope you will be ok and that you are able to at least enjoy some of the holidays