conversion disorder (maybe)

i went completely deaf 8 days ago. yesterday i saw an audiologist and she said things dont look good for me. she referred me to an ENT doc which im seeing today to do an ABR test. i guess im just scared that they arnt going to find anything wrong and diagnose me with conversion disorder. i mean that would be good and bad i guess. it would be good because there is nothing physically wrong with me, but it would be bad cause the only way to fix it is more therapy. now ive had conversion disorder before and it was siezure like symptoms where i would pass out and convules then wake up a few hours later. i went to therapy worked very hard at it for 4 years and it finally stopped thanksgiving day 2011. if this deafness is conversion disorder DOES THAT MEAN IM GOING TO BE DEAF FOR 4 YEARS!!!!!! i mean if its physically my ears i can get a hearing aid. quick fix! but another form of conversion disorder would be so devestating to me. does that sound selfish? am i crazy for wanting to be physically disable rather than mentally. i though my therapy was going so well. i just dont know!!!!

I wish I had a good answer for you, but I don't really know anything about conversion disorder.
And I don't think you're selfish or crazy. You're just frustrated right now, and that is a scary situation.