[Melmo]

I'm so frustrated and discouraged, I feel like my life will never get better and ill always be so unhappy. I had to leave work because of overwhelming anxiety today, a few times I almost burst into tears. I'm using food to make myself feel better and this makes me feel worse because for one, I'm gaining weight, it makes me feel like **** and it makes my depression and anxiety worse. Secondly, I feel like an absolute failure of a mom because I'm buying all this junk food and letting her eat it, and she sees me stuffing my face. She is 3 years old and I want so bad to get this under control before she picks up any of my bad eating habits.
Plus, I don't feel like doing anything but lying on the couch and my place is always a mess that I avoid cleaning until I absolutely have to, so again I feel like I'm failing as a mom
Just ranting here because nobody in real life knows about how I feel. You ever feel like you desperately want someone to know how miserable you are, but on the other hand can't stand to tell someone how depressed you are? I feel so alone.

[kaliope]

I hope you feel better after ranting. anxiety is a horrible thing to have to deal with. especially when you compound it with self esteem issues. when it comes to making better choices there is a simple phrase I remember, when you do bad, you feel bad, when you do good you feel good. when you make healthier choices in your life, you feel better about yourself. when you know you are going to feel better,this can motivate you to make those better choices. take care.

[gayleggg]

Hi, JustWantToBeNormal. Have you considered getting therapy? Or seen a professional? I think it is good to see that you are not being a good example for you little girl but that it is hard to pull yourself out of your anxiety on your own. Please seek help.
gayle

[IndieVisible]

Work can be a very stressful place for any one! With all the drama and different types of personalities, it's a perfect recipe for anxiety. It requires a lot of coping skills and that comes with practice. Some are able some are not. I agree you should seek therapy! That's a good place to learn coping skills. And even when your armed with decent coping skills, there will always be times you fail or seem like you fail. Happens to all of us. It's good to rant so keep that up! But definitely seek some help. We all need help some times!

[Mustkeepjob32]

Work is stressful for me too and I have a horrible time keeping a job because of almost constant anxiety. Is seeing a psychologist an option?

Z

[Melmo]

I am very seriously debating just quitting my job. My
Manager is constantly yelling, snapping, being rude to me or making me feel like an idiot. I can barely make it through a shift anymore and I just feel like in gonna blow up or just start crying.
I have tried to get into therapy but it can take generally about 18 + months to see someone one on one so I am starting a class tomorrow with other people with some of the same issues. I think I might ask my dr to increase my dose of celexa at my next appt. I'm so tempted to just up it myself.

[Mustkeepjob32]

Definitely ask the doc about Celexa and let us know about that class. Is it like group therapy? I wish there was something like that for me around here.

[Melmo]

I didn't realize my appt with my dr was today! lol so he upped it to 30mg, gonna see how that goes.
Yes I think it is like group therapy...I thought it was today but apparently it's Thursdays! I gotta get my appt dates straight! lol. Will be going tomorrow morning. I really hope it helps me to learn some coping skills to deal with my anxiety.

[Mustkeepjob32]

Yeah let us know how that class goes. I gotta find me one of those. Does anyone know if group therapy or stuff like can be found on somewhere like meetup.com?

[henrydavidtherobot]

"Just ranting here because nobody in real life knows about how I feel. You ever feel like you desperately want someone to know how miserable you are, but on the other hand can't stand to tell someone how depressed you are? I feel so alone."

I get that, a lot. I depend on my friends a lot to combat this. It took a lot of strength to open up, but it is so worth it. Do you many many people to talk to?

[Melmo]

Originally Posted by henrydavidtherobot

"Just ranting here because nobody in real life knows about how I feel. You ever feel like you desperately want someone to know how miserable you are, but on the other hand can't stand to tell someone how depressed you are? I feel so alone."

I get that, a lot. I depend on my friends a lot to combat this. It took a lot of strength to open up, but it is so worth it. Do you many many people to talk to?

A few if my friends know about my depression and anxiety, but they def don't know about how bad it is. I don't like to talk about it

[Melmo]

Oh and the class was great. I had to leave early for work but I can't wait til the next class on Thursday.