[sunsetsunrise]

hi
I have been trying to hang on lately. But it has not been easy. Its due to specific circumstances in my life. Just wanting to say that anxiety is worse now than ever. Not an easy time for me. Along with this comes even more of a feeling of alienation. I feel like all the dignity has been stripped away due to outside circumstances. Tonight I had to take care of myself. I went to an anxiety chatroom, at a different website, to try to calm down. But I empath so the anxiety got only worse when I was there, lol. So I left there with a panic attack. I am mostly agoraphobic and I live alone. Cant seem to be with people. Dont have anything left to give. Trying to calm down to sleep. do not want to get addicted to klonapin. So I do not take it every day or night. Need the company of people. But have nothing left to give. and right now I do not have a big cushon to absorb what I empath from people irl who are in a lot of pain also..... or, it seems, anxiety chatrooms lol. Thanks for listening.

[sundog]

I'm really sorry you're struggling so badly right now. I can relate to the high anxiety and panic attacks. I have these problems too. You say that your anxiety is due to specific life circumstances, so I really hope your situation changes for the better soon. Take care!

[rohshall]

Suppose you had a physical wound and you were hurting, would you just wish the pain away? Unfortunately, this is what we do when we have painful emotions because we don't want to take responsibility of our emotions. We only want to feel good emotions and ignore the painful ones. So, the emotional wounds fester and become chronic painful emotions or panic attacks.

I suggest you feel the anxiety and think why you are feeling it, find out your fears and learn to deal with what you are afraid of.

[sanityseeker]

Sun... I have been so caught up in my own stuff I only just saw this thread. I hope you are feeling better. Anxiety is so draining and so very hard to endure. It will pass. Try to get some sleep. Sleep deprevation can make it so much worse.

I hope whatever it is that is causing it is resolved soon. Breath. Focus on your breath and visualize a peaceful place and try to rest there a while. Let us know how you are doing.

[sunsetsunrise]

Thank you Sundog,rohsall and sanityseeker. I appreciate the words !! All of them. Hugs

[sanityseeker]

Are you feeling any better tonight Sun? My heart goes out to you. Sending good energy your way.

[sunsetsunrise]

oh thank you Sanityseeker !!! I am trying. I had one last apt left with the naturopath (today) before my insurance runs out at the end of the month. Her office called this morning to say she could not keep the apt. And asked if I could come in at noon. I could not. The naturopath really saw me for who I am. She was supportive and loving. So I am done with my therapists and the naturopath. I cannot seperate my (non-denomonational) spiritual life, challenges and beliefs, from my psychological life and challenges. So finding a therapist who understands and respects what I say is a bit tricky. Especially since medicare, which I was put on, has a short list of therapists they cover. So I sort of am feeling a lot of loss of my local support system in the midst of everything. But people have made it through worse. I guess as long as people have ourselves, that may be all we need to get through life. People DO have it worse than I. thank you for asking sanityseeker <3 how are you doing???? Please tell me

[Rhiannonsmoon]

Beautiful SunSun

How right you are not to be able to seperate physical from spiritual, they go hand in hand and while ever you give so much to others, you will leave yourself empty to the point of exhaustion and anxiety. Remember to carry an Ametrine and it will throw a wonderful bubble of energy around you and it never needs cleaning or energizing so you never need to put it down.

I am thinking of you and sending you much love and many hugs,

Rhiannon

[sanityseeker]

That is a lot to loose from your support network. I can appreciate how that must add to the anxiety. It is hard to find people who understand who we are, how we view our world and what empowers us to journey through life. Trust that whomever has been put in place to work with you going forward will be revealed to you soon. Draw strength from your spiritual understanding and it will strengthen all of you to rest in its peace. Allow yourself to believe all that you need will be put before you in its perfect time.

I am doing well.... comparatively. lol. I am thankful for the sleeps I have been having since started the Seroquel. My energy is up though today I am not so sure since I had to cut my sleep short and consequently feel a bit hungover. I am taking my son and some of his buddies into the city for the national exhibition. Crowds and noise on the agenda. I will bring a book and retreat to my truck if need be. Its all good.

Wishing you a day with less anxiety and more vision for the next leg of your journey.

[sunsetsunrise]

Bless your wonderful heart Rhiannon. I will get the Ametrine today or tomorrow. Guess it will not need to be cleared out before using. But will ask Michael to work on and with it anyway. Thank you for your words. Fine line between the hearts longing to be in service and knowing when to nourish oneself, and receive. yes? Your words are received by my heart. Sending light love and blessings.

Sanityseeker, yes, your words are so right. So appropriate. So true. To trust that the next person or situation will come along. Trusting and knowing that is what keeps the door to receiving open. thank you for saying that !! I am grateful for your beaufiul encouraging words. Glad you are getting sleep with the help of the seroquil. It really is being used as a sleep aid these days. Successfully so. Although the hung over feeling is not the greatest. Better than sleep deprived. Sounds like you will have a good day with your son and his buds. Thank you for who you are. Thank you for being here.

[Fuzzybear]

[wheresmysmile]

mine is as well im in a complete rage today i feel so much hatred toward my newly wedded husband hes doing nothing but making my skin crawl im charli and i feels so alienated i dont have any friends for many different reason and i feel ashamed of my pass i dont know if i have a soul id love to talk more