[Lacw22]

I am34 and have had a form of anxiety since I was a teenager. I have been taking Paxil for12 years and it helped. Then my dog passed away and I was with him when he passed. I was super sad and depressed and still miss him so much. I live alone and that makes it worse. My anxiety went way up after about 2 months and I have been struggling since then.3 weeks ago I started on a higher Paxil and buspar. It started to help so that I didn't feel the 24/7 anxiety and I was having terrifying fears and thoughts and feeling like what was the point of life, and that had improved. But I was so afraid of it coming back and the meds not working, and I had put in an application to adopt a dog and was nervous about it, not sure if it's the right decision(I can never decide), that I worked myself into an attack this morning. I forgot everything I've learned about helping during an attack and started fearing that this will never go away and this is not how to live life if I can't handle any thing! So now I've been nervous all day. I just fear that I can't be helped, that my brain will just fight it. Anyone ever feel this way? Anyone recovering well? Thanks...

[Little Lulu]

Welcome to Psych Central Lacw22. Losing you dog must have been a terrible blow. Mine died last year and it was such a hard thing.

I can identify with fearing that you can't be helped. There was a time when my anxiety and depression were so bad I felt that way also so you are not alone. I am better now so there is hope. I believe recovery is possible. Hugs to you.

[Lacw22]

Originally Posted by Little Lulu

Welcome to Psych Central Lacw22. Losing you dog must have been a terrible blow. Mine died last year and it was such a hard thing.

I can identify with fearing that you can't be helped. There was a time when my anxiety and depression were so bad I felt that way also so you are not alone. I am better now so there is hope. I believe recovery is possible. Hugs to you.

Thank you. It helps to hear someone felt this way but is doing better now. I know so many people suffer from this but I always feel like I'm the only one who won't get better. Thanks for the encouragement.

[Vossie42]

I'm so sorry for your loss! Losing your beloved friend is enough to set off horrible 24/7 anxiety. You can get better. You've been better before, so there's no reason you can't be better again. Good for you in applying to adopt a dog! I think that's a step in the right direction. Time for some fur therapy.