[Hellion]

Sometimes I hate this so much...feels like I am always on edge worrying about people making me uncomfortable or outright harassing. While I am not much of a conformist the thought of being rejected and ridiculed really holds me back....I mean sometimes I feel like I open up a little and people jump on that to insult or judge me.

Just makes things really hard I mean I try to adress the issues I have in an honest manner and its hard when people make assumptions or want to blame something stupid like the fact I've used cannabis for my problems. I mean I've had various issues since before I even heard of that and my doctors/therapists do not have an issue with my level of cannabis use...they say it is not problematic and doesn't fit the addiction defintion yes I discuss this stuff with them....

I don't know I just feel like if I take two steps forward concerning social interaction...I might receive hate and judgement instead of any kind of understanding. I am even afraid to re-contact a guy I went out with one night because I am so afraid of rejection...and I even told this person I only want to be friends and not date yet and they where ok with it...but I still fear the would judge me badly if they actually get to know me.

Even the thought of group therapy of some kind with people with simular issues makes me nervous as I am worried about not fitting into the clique of the group or whatever.

Is anyone else quite afraid of people....but also doesn't like to admit it or talk about it?

[kaliope]

im afraid of people because I think I am so broken and damaged that no one would like or approve of me. so I live a life of isolation. I get along pretty well this way. I don't mind being alone. im to the point that I don't think much about others and what they think about me anymore because people just don't exist for me in my life anymore. I just don't need social interaction. I don't need approval. hopefully you can reach this point. take care.

[Hellion]

I do mind being alone (unfortunately), and don't think that will change...I mean sure sometimes I need time to myself to re-charge but in my opinion long term isolation is almost just as bad as unpleasant social interactions.

[5678scream]

I'm afraid of people and it sucks, the only group therapy I've been in has been one for mindfulness. I feel like I need a group to teach me how to interact with people so I won't be rejected. My family doesn't quite get it because they all think I am just quiet and shy and don't think I need to be on SSDI, I'm afraid that if I speak what I am really feeling, uncensored, that I will dig myself into a hole and people will hate me more for it, right now I feel they just think I am weird and too quiet, I can't have any confrontations, and I mean just sticking up for myself in daily interaction confrontations. joking around and all, I just can't do it. I like being by myself because then I can be me, but then there are times where I would like to be with friends, yet I have none, well one, but I am moving far away soon. I crave to have social interactions with people yet I am so scared, petrified really, when people talk to me I get the deer caught in headlight look. so yea, I know what you are saying.

[Alone91]

Originally Posted by 5678scream

I'm afraid of people and it sucks, the only group therapy I've been in has been one for mindfulness. I feel like I need a group to teach me how to interact with people so I won't be rejected. My family doesn't quite get it because they all think I am just quiet and shy and don't think I need to be on SSDI, I'm afraid that if I speak what I am really feeling, uncensored, that I will dig myself into a hole and people will hate me more for it, right now I feel they just think I am weird and too quiet, I can't have any confrontations, and I mean just sticking up for myself in daily interaction confrontations. joking around and all, I just can't do it. I like being by myself because then I can be me, but then there are times where I would like to be with friends, yet I have none, well one, but I am moving far away soon. I crave to have social interactions with people yet I am so scared, petrified really, when people talk to me I get the deer caught in headlight look. so yea, I know what you are saying.

I get what you mean, I tried telling my one and only friend how I feel and she just brushed it off, said that's stupid and that she didn't even know what to say to me anymore. I definitely know what your both saying too