[benson123]

I'm just looking for some feedback on my anxiety and causes. I'm 32. When I was younger I worked regardless of how much I liked or disliked the job. I went back to school when I was 25 graduated with two degrees with honors at 29. After that something broke. It is so hard for me to work. My anxiety spirals. Panic attacks etc. My sister told me it is because I burnt myself out going to school full time and working full time for those years. I have been on meds and or seen a therapist at different times. Right now I am working on going to see someone. I just don't know why it has gotten so bad. Why is it so hard to hold a job now that I really need it...student loans...rent...other bills.

I apologize if this is all repetitive info and questions. I know I have posted multiple times about my new job. I need to get it out or I get anxious with my thoughts and it helps to talk to others. Thanks everyone.

[June55]

Change? No longer being in school. School=safe. School=predictable.

[hvert]

Does looking for a new job help at all with the anxiety? Sometimes that would make me feel better like I was taking steps to improve my situation. I wouldn't underestimate the effects of burnout combined with a toxic work situation -- both can really do a number on you.

You mentioned in another post that you had contacted a former employer -- I hope you hear back.

[benson123]

I had a phone interview still waiting to hear something. I think another job would cause a similar reaction. I look at the job description of anything and freak out. I had anxiety at the job I am trying to get back too. It didn't feel as intense as now.

[hvert]

Ah, okay -- it's really good that you know it's not just the job. I'm usually slow to realize that my problem won't go away just because I change jobs/relationships/whatever.

I hope you figure this out and find ways to control your job anxiety.

[benson123]

I appreciate your response. Looking for new jobs in the past made me feel better like I was being productive. Not any more though.

[Verity81]

I am wondering if low self confidence is at the heart of this? Do you look at a job description and thing 'I cant do that' etc.

How do you view yourself and your abilities?

[Kaboodle]

Sorry you're having such a terrible time. You listed student loans...rent...other bills. It sounds like you might be overwhelmed financially and can't get a handle on it maybe?

During my last session, I told my therapist that I was still suffering from anxiety. I told her there was no reason for me to have anxiety now. We worked through one big issue I had caused by a psych trauma.

I confessed that I had one tiny thing bothering me but it was no big deal. She said that many times anxiety is a whole lot of stuff swept under the rug--not necessarily one big thing. She's right. Look under your rug and really examine your inner self and try to find out what's causing all this anxiety.

I have two things that help me...one is exercise. The other is Deepak Chopra. I'm not a fanatic of any sort but I saw him on TV and got interested in his peacefulness. I ordered a couple of cd's from Amazon which haven't come yet. I follow him on FB and get a dose of his peacefulness a couple time a day. We all need that peace in this day and age.

Good luck. Keep us posted and I wish you much relief and success.

[live2ski66]

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I apologize if this is all repetitive info and questions. I know I have posted multiple times about my new job. I need to get it out or I get anxious with my thoughts and it helps to talk to others. Thanks everyone.[/QUOTE]

Hi there,

I don't want to sound rude or intolerant because this is a venue for all of us to find some sort of support. In your case it appears as if you are looking for a yes/no answer which none of us can give you. First of all, we are not in the medical field, second, my personal opinion, it would be irresponsible to guide you a yes/no without a professional assessment. In my experience even when I go to my therapist or psychiatrist they make me come up with the answer based on the therapy session.

So, with all due respect, I recommend you call your therapist or psychiatrist. If you don't have access to one, most counties have mental health centers which offer services on a sliding scale. You will get the best possible suggestion based on your situation.

Goodluck!

[benson123]

Originally Posted by live2ski66

[QUOTE
I apologize if this is all repetitive info and questions. I know I have posted multiple times about my new job. I need to get it out or I get anxious with my thoughts and it helps to talk to others. Thanks everyone.

Hi there,

I don't want to sound rude or intolerant because this is a venue for all of us to find some sort of support. In your case it appears as if you are looking for a yes/no answer which none of us can give you. First of all, we are not in the medical field, second, my personal opinion, it would be irresponsible to guide you a yes/no without a professional assessment. In my experience even when I go to my therapist or psychiatrist they make me come up with the answer based on the therapy session.

So, with all due respect, I recommend you call your therapist or psychiatrist. If you don't have access to one, most counties have mental health centers which offer services on a sliding scale. You will get the best possible suggestion based on your situation.

Goodluck![/QUOTE]
I apologize. I do see where you are coming from. I have a couple appts set up. One with a new pcp and another with a therapist. I know these are my issues. I know my confidence and self-esteem are low. I try to deal but hate being alone so I post here. I will find a different outlet.

[Verity81]

No I don't think you should feel that you should stop posting. If it helps then as far as I am concerned this is what these forums are for.

[Kaboodle]

Hey, we're all in the same pot of soup here. No need to find a different outlet. Continue to post here and we'll all support one another which is what these forums are meant to do. I like to come here. I consider it the judgement-free zone.

[Gus1234U]

i have found that agonizing over the cause of a brain chemistry disorder doesn't serve me... what works for me is learning how to manage the 'symptoms', effects, and stop them as much as possible.

here is a thread that might be of use to you: http://forums.psychcentral.com/anxie...nt-skills.html

i'll put the actual skills that i learned in a group here for you:

Coping With Anxiety and Panic:

1. Remember, feelings of panic are just exaggerations of normal bodily stress reactions.

2. Sensations are neither harmful nor dangerous - just unpleasant. Nothing worse will happen.

3. Anxiety is temporary. Instead of fighting it, relax into it. Just let it be.

4. Focus on facing the fear rather than trying to avoid it or escape from it.

5. Stop adding to the panic with frightening thoughts of where panic will lead.

6. Stay in the present. Be aware of what is happening to you rather than concern yourself with how much worse it might get.

7. Notice that when you stop adding to panic with frightening thoughts, the fear begins to fade.

8. Wait and give the fear time to pass.

9. Look around you. Plan what you will do next as the panic subsides.

10. When you are ready to go on, do so in an easy, relaxed manner. There is no hurry.

11. Think about the progress made so far despite all the difficulties.

Some Specific Actions:

1. Manage your breathing, if it is rapid, breathe into a paper sack to lower oxygen uptake;

2. Count your breaths, 1001, 1002, 1003, ect, up to 1020, then start again, slow down the count to slow your heartbeat. counting interferes with anxiety;

3. Delay doing anything about your anxiety or panic, just follow the steps and focus on getting thru it;

4. Distract yourself, with anything that requires you to focus and is simple and handy - at home you might read something easy, like a magazine, or knit or wash dishes, whatever engages your attention;

5. Eat something to replenish the blood sugars that adrenalin has burned up, and give yourself at least 15 minutes for the kidneys to clean out the 'ashes' in your blood;

6. Write these things down and keep them with you, until you have made them a habit

practice these skills before you need them, or when you are just mildly anxious, so they will be familiar when you are feeling very upset. i hope you find this information helpful~

best wishes~
Gus

[benson123]

Thank you all for your kind words and support. I really am trying. I got an email back from my old employer. As long as I pass the background check and drug test they will rehire me. Today was one of the worst working days of my life. I'm so embarrassed with myself. I think it is more than anxiety. I know if my gut I just do not understand it. I'm putting in my notice on Monday. I know without the official job offer this is risky but I know this is not working for me. I don't eat anymore. I try to stretch, relax, journal and listen to trance meditation. It is that this job is a bad fit for me. I told my boyfriend. He said we are in this together, which I don't want to put that extra pressure on him but I feel that I will get rehired. I can't live like this. I have an appt with a doc in the morning. I hope to get some meds refilled to last me a few months. As long as I am rehired my old employers insurance kicks in the first day. Wish me luck everything works out. Thank you all again.

[benson123]

I also feel the background check and drug test will go fine. I passed fine before. And I only left 7 weeks ago.

[Gus1234U]

i hope this finds you back in your old job, and well on your way to restabilizing~!

[benson123]

Just a quick update. My previous employer offered me my old job back. I would be completely starting over, however at least I know it is a good company with a job I am familiar. I understand and am grateful for the second chance. I'm optimistic that will help me. I also went to group therapy yesterday for anxiety and saw a new therapist today. My nerves are still frayed but I can see some light. Thank you all again for your constant support.

[Mustkeepjob32]

Very good news about you getting your old job back. Glad that you are optimistic. Hold on to those good feelings!

[5678scream]

today, I've been reading all the posts that everyone has had to say about your situation. I wish you the best of luck in the most sincere form. I am thinking about quiting my own job because my paranoia and social anxiety is so bad, so not that I know where you're coming from or anything, but I do know that intense feeling of anxiety and how destructible it can be. My advice is to be as honest as you can with your therapist andhopefully you will cover new ground. best of luck.

[Verity81]

Yes good luck xxx

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